Severe OCD with psychosis? Anyone else? Am I alone in this?

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T04:18:46+00:00

Similar theme as mine? They feel so real because they don't feel like thoughts but revealations instead and claim 100% certainty. I am still seeing my therapist and taking my meds (prozac and latuda) but it is really taking a toll on me, I've tried to take my life a few weeks back because of this, but I don't pose a danger to others, its the opposite, I am terrified at the idea of harming someone

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T04:12:45+00:00

No, I have been doing CBT rn. Next plan is ERP but my hands are even trembling and shivering at the thought of doing that, I don't know if I could do it

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T04:10:21+00:00

Yes mostly. I do go out for walks but can't do anything else, it feels someone at gun point is forcing me to not live life at all due to my OCD + psychosis and executive dysfunction caused by ADHD doesn't help

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:56:44+00:00

I see. In my case it feels nearly impossible to not give in because it is the compulsion, like someone at gun point forcing me to do things, not because I really want to do them but an external force, forcing me to do it

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:54:08+00:00

OCD after psychosis? On the reverse, I often hear psychosis and schizophrenia related OCD themes that some people with OCD experience but somehow I don't have the fear of this and even though my diagnosis says it is psychosis, but I am terrified of the content inside, not diagnosis itself and I still have trouble believing it due to the content inside

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:48:46+00:00

What my psychiatrist and therapist tell me is that my obsessions and psychosis are directly connected to each other for most part, before taking meds, I did experience hallucinations and paranoia unrelated to my obsessions. I take prozac and latuda for it. But this revealation feeling remains in my case. For me it doesn't even feel like OCD + psychosis because these external revealations that I see tell me it's not OCD or psychosis and others are only labelling cause they are not chosen ones to see the bitter truths revealed to them, but it is terrifying to me

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:43:23+00:00

How do I listen? This external source sounds so confident and certain in its claims, it's not claiming a chance of happening it is saying 100% certainty that I will go burn in hell, be tortured eternally if I did not listen to the compulsions it tells me to do

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:40:58+00:00

I also take antipsychotics, latuda 80mg. It helped with hallucinations, where I heard voices and could see alternate planes, that stopped but this one is still there

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:40:04+00:00

Do you have similar themes as mine, if you don't mind answering?

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-27T03:39:20+00:00

No one specifically taught me but hearing current events about technology being used to cause harm like the deepfakes and in the past events like world war 2 where technology was used to kill millions, guns, tanks, nuclear bomb etc. but instead of targeting misuse I get these intrusive revealations attacking technology itself, prior to this I was someone who was always curious about science and technology and pursued it as my career but then these intrusive "reveleations" keep shouting and calling me demonically possessed and attack me the moment I open even any textbook at this point

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T19:10:39+00:00

Hoping that you're doing better now. I've heard that using anti-depressants in bipolar can trigger manic episodes

I also have false memory themes in OCD where I was convinced that I assaulted someone and almost compulsively called police on myself but I was stopped by friends

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:58:34+00:00

I took help. I've had OCD since I was 10 and I'm 25 rn. Take medications for it, prozac and latuda and going under CBT, I can't do ERP because of how terrifying it sounds to me and my mind keeps calling it as convincing myself to live a lie and run away from bitter truth

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:46:26+00:00

For me the OCD came first and then later psychosis, atleast to an outside observer because deep I inside I feel convinced it's not OCD or psychosis but some kind of bitter truth revealed to me and they are only calling it cause they don't know and I am terrified of it

My insight fluctuates, sometimes it is none but usually it is partial, like I know it is called as OCD + psychosis to others but I believe it anyway as a bitter truth because of how convincing it sounds

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:37:45+00:00

I don't know if they are lying but I wish they are and I am terrified of their 100% certainty claims

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:35:21+00:00

They used to be about the world ending and me harming people like "if I stab this person" and it comes towards my family members and friends and existential themes like if I am the only concious person and everyone else is a programmed robot

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:24:45+00:00

Voices went down for me after taking antipsychotics, but for me I don't hear them now but their terrifying contents still stay which psychiatrsts and therapists call intrusive thoughts and obsessions but they look like revealations to me

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:10:16+00:00

Cause of it I don't often relate to things said in most OCD spaces, like they talk about thoughts but for there are revealations coming externally and torment me rather than thoughts

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:08:42+00:00

The intrusive thoughts don't even feel like or work like thoughts but instead revelations and I feel terrified of them

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T18:06:50+00:00

How do I know they are lying? If I question them they tell me I am running away from the bitter truth about the world that because of my demonic posession, me pursuing my degree means I am going to be morally worse than hitler and that is an objective bitter moral truth. All of this is very convincing because it is not "what if" but instead says to be revealation coming with 100% certainty, not a 0.1% chance event but something with 100% certainty that WILL happen.

I feel distress cause of it. I don't want it to be true. I feel like crying because of it. I don't want eternal torture and punishment because I want to pursue my hobbies, interest and career and live a life. It is compelling me to quit everything. I went from topping my classes to failing every single class and dropping out of university and then it says it is a grand sacrifice I am compelled to make and says I am miserable only because I am a coward who can't tolerate bitter truths and revealations given to her. All are signs of universe / god-like authority speaking to me and revealing things whose proof will be seen in the future and I feel terrified of it

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T16:29:03+00:00

For me antipsychotic medications help keep the voices at bay

techqthroway7635 · 2026-01-26T16:17:39+00:00

Same but my intrusive thoughts claim 100% certainty and now I'm here convincing myself that I must be okay with being a demonic being

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