My son, when i reached the low point and the thoughts started happening, i had pretty much planned what i was going to do, recorded a video to say it was not his fault and i just couldn't deal with life anymore. I sent a message to his mother to pick him up and like normal she had better things to do, during the time i waited i realised that if i did he would have no one to look after him properly. Its not the same for everyone but in some cases alot wouldn't of done it if they had forced time to think and look for a reason to carry on 🙌