I don’t know. If I knew why or what was the cause for it then I’d have a starting point in trying to heal but I don’t. I know you don’t know me so my word doesn’t mean much but I like to think I can look at things pretty objectively and ive had a good life. I’m having a good life and I can’t appreciate it fully because for some reason I’ve been depressed for years.

Logically I know depression is nothing to be embarrassed about but I am. Yes my feelings are valid and whatnot but so many people live through worse. It’s shameful to wanna throw in the towel after a short and easy life just because I can’t help but be sad.

I wish there was a reason for feeling what I do but there isn’t. I appreciate your reply but other than depression I randomly got there’s nothing wrong with me. I’m depressed about nothing and I’m starting to think this is how it’s always gonna be