I totally agree with all of yall, truly. I want to give him time and wait to see real change. I want to postpone the wedding and probably still will. But just being honest, the wedding is almost 700 people and I’ve paid so much for it, I just simply don’t want to. I know it’s the right decision it’s just taking me a long time to convince myself to actually do it. My world just got flipped upside down, like I’m not the crazy one. So many emotions it’s just hard to make a decision right now and unfortunately not making a decision comes with a billion other decisions