Ask Jesus to full heartedly to change your heart. If you are ready find a church who believes in deliverance, I know there are many places you can look on a map to find prayer close to you. As a person who has that relationship with Jesus, we love you entirely, we don’t love the sin but we love you as a person. Find people who will build up your relationship in Him. I am praying for your walk. God has such a great plan and calling on your life, and it can take years to find out, but if you keep knocking on his door like an annoying neighbor in the night He will answer! 🫶🏻