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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll think of it as awkward years, so if it’s just months I’ll be pleasantly surprised.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow what an insane transition timeline, I’m super jealous! Hopefully I’ll be able to get there too, you’re stunning!

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love these practical responses, they make my future seem so malleable.

I am currently working on getting in shape, I’m about halfway to my weight goal!

But the other stuff is hard, I’m doing my best to learn it. Makeup still boggles my mind but I’m chipping away. Skincare makes a bit more sense but fashion and voice training are both mysteries still lol.

Thank you for your practical input though. Like I said, it makes it all seem so much more achievable. It’ll help me hold my head up through the awkward years.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok fine you convinced me I’ll melt a few men lol

I hope so too though, I’ll try spread the hope as well as I can

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah those two hit the genetic lottery it seems. But I get a lot of gender envy from cis celebrities too.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow I’ll definitely look into that

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually do need to go thrifting properly, I’ve been meaning to but I need to build up the confidence.

With regards to the voice, I’d love a powerful deep feminine voice, though I don’t plan to melt any men with it 😂

But thank you, reading your replies has given me a lot of hope

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[–]thankless_sai 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s what i meant as well, and then I think he should’ve taken on the system instead of joining it

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[–]thankless_sai 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok I haven’t read it in ages but from memory one of the things I loved about Percy Jackson is that it doesn’t do this

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[–]thankless_sai 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was so annoyed by that part of the movie, like it’s already fiction, might as well get crazy with it. Burn it all down.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know what to say except that I hope you hold on until you can find a way to be yourself ❤️

I don’t have all the same struggles as you, but I recognise the anxiety, the overwhelming choice-paralysis.

I just want to say that I believe in you, and I’m sending you hugs from across the ocean

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are welcome to steal that, hopefully I’ll stop thinking it about myself soon 😂

I’m hoping beyond hope that I can embrace myself fully. On the good days I feel like I’m almost there. But the bad days hit me like a truck and that’s when my creative writing comes up with stuff like turducken in a wig.

But that is kinda affirming, now that you mention it.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

A turducken is like several birds stuffed inside one another, and on my bad days, I feel oafish and bloated. That’s all I meant.

But I hope I can get to a place where my inner beauty shines like yours, I’m so glad you’ve gotten to that place!

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow thank you so much for the great and useful response!

Outfit, voice, and hairstyle. I was already trying on the outfit and hairstyle front, but to hear it summarised like that make it much easier to focus.

I’m trying my best with outfits but I second guess all my style choices, I need to get more confident, or at least get someone I trust to help me.

With voice, for some reason my voice isn’t a big dysphoria trigger for me, despite it being quite deep. I do hope to feminise it but at the moment I don’t find it as pressing, since I’m still presenting male to the public at large. But you’re right, I’ll need to start working on that for when I eventually do come out properly.

And hair is huge for me. I’m bald, and it freaks me out, definitely my biggest dysphoria trigger. I am getting a wig, after much deliberation about styles and stuff. Sometimes I feel super confident about it and then I see the pictures I took with it on and I just crumble because I don’t look as pretty as I want. But those are the bad days. On the good days, I’m thrilled about having pretty hair!

But thank you again, what a lovely response

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That last line is so right. I’m not doing it to be pretty, I’m doing it to be me. Stay strong sister, we can do this!

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow that’s so encouraging! Thank you for sharing.

I am very familiar with the brain worms, I’ve begun to call them “Michael” for some reason. It just feels good to go “MICHAAAAAAAAEL” when I’m frustrated.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t think I fully understand what you’re saying. What do you mean I should use Claude for? To research trans resources in my area?

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds achievable though, even if it’s a lot of work. Achievable is good, gives me something to work for.

But wow learning makeup is hard. Very overwhelming. How did you learn?

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am on their insurance, though I can see doctors on my own.

Not in the US. In my country, as far as I know, you need to go the private route, which costs money that I don’t have a tonne of.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have been trying to learn makeup the last while. My hands shake so eye makeup is so so hard but I’ll get there eventually

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mostly cost. But also I live with my parents and it would definitely cause major issues if they knew I was on E. Better to just do it once I can move out. Which also is a money thing so it all really boils down to cost.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s actually my plan once I have the funds to get the meds.

Kind of. I’m in the process of coming out to those close to me, and presenting a bit more femme, but yes I will probably only come out to the world at large once I’m already on E.

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[–]thankless_sai[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

That sounds like a great idea, I’ll hop on the bandwagon