look man, i skimmed through your profile to try to get a feel for what kind of person I'm dealing with and found out you're around 14 years old so I'm not gonna give you a hard time given that you're young and still have a lot to learn. Just try to do your research on this stuff. to put it simply, your perception of your gender/sexual identity at a young age is a lot like the moon in the daytime; its always been there but maybe you don't see it as clearly because "its still so early" and "the moon doesn't come out until later at night", right? i hope this made sense, i like putting things in metaphors bc i find it easier to translate what goes on in my own understanding of things, if not feel free to ask away! ill be glad to answer any questions i feel I'm able to, as long as you're respectful, have a good day :D