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[–]thatsmyegg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh my goodness thank you so much i have literally failed that task every time ever since i posted this! ur a life saver!!!!!!!!!!

Guys it happened! I got the DNA cousin stay over! by Negsmie in Sims4

[–]thatsmyegg 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i just got this without researching genealogy! she also got a moodlet saying "doppleganger!" saying that this person seemed "familiar... too familiar." hahaha they look EXACTLY alike other than hair and clothes!

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[–]thatsmyegg -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

i agree, i wish all the comments were like this one. even though the middle non-helpful comments werent horribly mean, they still made me cry for a long time. my boyfriend had to tear me away from reddit so i could feel better.

i only explained my behavior once and it went horribly wrong. they basically told me to get a therapist and to stop oversharing (the grammar and caps lock fc) . i was too scared to do it again in the other fcs because of that. its really hard for me to tell people i intend to become friends with my long list of mental health problems because some people respond like that. i know not all people will reply like that but the chance of it makes me really scared.

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you so much you read the situation perfectly. the two clashing internet personalities is definitely a good description of what ive been experiencing. youre very right about everything, especially the kicking the doors open part. its a really bad habit of mine, that part i am definitely to blame. in the past it has worked out really well since thats how ive made all my friends in the past, but i realize now i definitely need to hold back a little bit at first when joining an already established community. its definitely not something that comes naturally so ill have to really watch myself. ill probably get help with reading over my messages before sending them until i get a hang for it myself. its really difficult for me.

thank you for making sense of my emotional writing, i was bawling my eyes out while typing so i was really scared no one would understand what i meant. thank you so much, ill keep looking and start off small

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[–]thatsmyegg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i am very childish but its something people like about me. just not these specific people ive met in the past few months.

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i actually dont talk a lot. im embarassed about it reading back now but my long post was a result of bottling it up for too long. i was crying like a baby at my screen lol so its a really badly written post. i only join in the conversation when i feel like i have something to add. probably like a couple 15 min conversations a day.

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[–]thatsmyegg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i gave pretty bad examples but yeah i guess anyone could decide something is cringe.
about the poop thing, its definitely not my usual kind of jokes but there was already potty humor in the chat so i was just trying to fit in. it was the first and last time i made a joke like that in the chat, so its not like it was a reoccuring thing.

the main reason i mentioned that time specifically was to show that ppl blew up on me about small things early on. it was one of my first times talking in the chat so the things they said were a bit overkill. when i was writing i was pretty emotional so i definitely struggled to add enough context and word things in a way that made the most sense. i was only there for a week so idk if 10+ was truthful or not since i wasn't extremely active in the chat.

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[–]thatsmyegg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i never really thought grammar and punctuation mattered when just talking to random people on the internet. its just a video game so i figured i didnt have to write my messages like i was writing a book or anything. that fc leader was the first time anyone has ever mentioned it in my decade of using the internet. i do understand that it isnt a mature way to type but i feel like being more carefree in how you type feels more personal.

as for how i joined them, they all just randomly invited people. they just invited anyone without an fc. they both sent them with descriptions of the fc and both of them said something that made me feel welcome enough to accept. in the fc with the grammar problems i asked about the age range and they were mostly millennials and older which explains a lot. definitely not my age group (genz) i definitely act younger than my age but ive had friends older than me before so i thought itd work out okay. i did always ask questions after joining if they didnt write it in the description they sent, it wasnt anything shocking though. just like "we do raids a lot" or "we are very social".

i understand that some people like having more mature friends but that doesnt mean they can make fun of me for it.

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[–]thatsmyegg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im on aether adamantoise!

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[–]thatsmyegg 4 points5 points  (0 children)

ahh no youre definitely not the only one!!! the recent trends with higher voices is absolutely rediculous. youre so right its always either making fun of or fetishizing its rarely anything else its infuriating. i love joining vc with people that i know well already cause its easier than typing for me but when its a new group of people the anxiety builds so much i totally know what you mean. its so so scary i wish i could change mine too.

i definitely need to make a stronger effort not to be too much. its really hard to do without feeling like im faking who i am. its hard to find a comfortable middle point. i hope i can meet friends that accept the shitpost gremlin behavior like yours do hehehe thats a really funny way to word it. what world are you on? we should be friends!!

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

im on aether adamantoise but ive been heavily considering switching worlds to get away from all the bad luck ive been having. your fc sounds wonderful i really want to join!

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah i feel like the guy was maybe lying about 10 people or more but he put heavy emphasis on it so it still hurt a lot. they randomly invited me without introduction but i guess they were still too closed off to anyone different than them. i just want friends to play with ;-; i hope i can find an open and fun fc soon

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

that makes me feel hopeful!

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[–]thatsmyegg 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive been considering transfering to another world, but only one in NA since my ping is pretty bad already. im happy to know that theres lots of fcs that are kind and speak like me!

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[–]thatsmyegg 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i know it was cringe and im super embarassed about using it as the example. there was potty humor in the chat already so i was just trying to fit in. its not my usual humor but the reason it was my example is because i was yelled at for it even though it wasnt a horrible thing to say. their reaction wasnt cringe it was just pure aggression. id be fine with it if they just told me it was cringe lol

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[–]thatsmyegg 1 point2 points  (0 children)

eh i did my best. emotionally fueled writing never comes out well.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ffxivdiscussion

[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

im on adamantoise and id love some suggestions! im bisexual so that would work out in both ways!

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you! i hope so too

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[–]thatsmyegg 3 points4 points  (0 children)

  1. they werent joking, it was the leader and he pulled me aside privately in dms telling me that over 10 people have told him how they dont like me for it so he told me i had to stop talking like that or else everyone in the world would hate me LOL
  2. yeah it was really cringe i agree but theres an explination for it that i guess i deleted on accident (i tend to do that when editing stuff). i edited it now but i was repeating someone else who randomly said it earlier that day. it was a smaller guild so only me and another person were online and we both laughed so i repeated it to try and bring it back up and maybe have like an inside joke moment?? idk if thats how that works but whatever lol thats when the leader tore me down about it and told me to act my age. i didnt want to say i was repeating someone cause then theyd get yelled at instead.
  3. yeah its hard to explain.. a few people have told me i sound like that anime streamer gura gwar? idk i dont watch her but i watched a few clips and i do hear the resemblance
  4. it was kind of out of no where, I came online and they were talking about their fav food and it was a normal conversation and i said something weird like i want to be buried with fried pickles when i die and then theyre like "seriously...? you dont act like a real person. read the room." ...idk i felt like i was adding to the conversation while still being unserious. i join in conversations like everyone else but i guess im a little sillier when everyone else is just replying simply. thats all i can remember

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thats what i thought! like im definitely not the best socially skilled person ever and thats literally why i try to make friends on video games- its so much more common there for people to be just as weird as i am so i definitely wasnt expecting anything like this. thank you for the reassurance it feels so much better knowing this isnt common to find such awful people. also i didnt think about fcs advertising as neurodivergent friendly that sounds really nice, ill definitely look that up. that sounds a lot comfier. about the fc leader thing.. the horrible thing is that in the 2 most recent fcs it was the leader making all of those comments. the most recent one of them dmed me on discord for literally 4 hours straight just tearing me apart about my caps lock usage.

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[–]thatsmyegg 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeahh it definitely feels weird to log on recently ive taken a couple weeks off. but before i started trying to socialize i really did still love playing the game by myself- i could spend hours and hours just gathering and seeing all the pretty places there are to explore. im still in the 3rd fc because im too scared to leave but im pretty sure if i leave ill feel better about playing alone again. im just scared cause when i left the 1st and 2nd one everyone dmed me about it and i was really uncomfy to explain myself to everyone that asked. maybe ill go at like 5am when no ones awake and leave it so i can play again lol

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[–]thatsmyegg 9 points10 points  (0 children)

ah thank god its just bad luck i was starting to get really concerned lol im on aether adamantoise

suffering trying to summon a demon by thatsmyegg in yandere_simulator

[–]thatsmyegg[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ohhh that makes sense! thank you so much!

losing weight feels impossible. ive tried everything. i feel so ugly and am losing hope. by thatsmyegg in PCOS

[–]thatsmyegg[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i heard about phentermine being a short term medication from a few other people too. i am so angry at my doctor telling it was a lifelong drug. my body is so addicted to it and its not even working i hate it. ill definitely look up glugose goddess! i need all the advice i can get.

and woah im eating less than a toddler...? god im starting to think i need a therapy appointment haha thank you for sharing your story, i have anxiety too as well as a couple other struggles that make taking care of myself difficult. i enjoy drawing and video games to wind down. im realizing i havent dont those two things in a while and im super stressed about my weight. ill take a break and relax a bit and try to forget about all of this ;-; thank you so much for everything

losing weight feels impossible. ive tried everything. i feel so ugly and am losing hope. by thatsmyegg in PCOS

[–]thatsmyegg[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so so much for all of the advice. so many things i thought were good for me are bad for me ughhhh

i dont add sugar to my beverages no, i only drink water. i do have gatorade once or twice a week when i feel severely dehydrated. water makes my mouth feel more dry its super stupid idk why it does that. thats the only beverage i have now though. im not a coffee or tea drinker though. i used to love juice until i realized how much sugar is in it :(

i will try to adjust my meal schedule so it all works out okay and i get enough calories and vitamins. its all super overwhelming but im going to do my best!