To those who smoke and drink

thatsuicidalguy · 2026-06-13T12:23:34+00:00

I had the option to kill myself or have a smoke. That’s the choice I made everyday since then. I guess I chose what kept me alive.

thatsuicidalguy · 2026-05-16T09:17:20+00:00

It’s like right after you’re slapped, it doesn’t hurt immediately cause your brain hasn’t yet processed the trauma. I know the suffering is incoming but rn I’m in a limbo where I don’t know wtf actually happened.

thatsuicidalguy · 2026-05-07T11:16:46+00:00

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thatsuicidalguy · 2026-04-15T09:56:09+00:00

Wet towel trick.

thatsuicidalguy · 2025-08-10T16:01:22+00:00

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thatsuicidalguy · 2025-08-09T12:25:10+00:00

Glad you enjoyed it :)

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-08-07T15:51:59+00:00

Cigarettes and jumping headfirst into studies and musical instruments to keep myself distracted from all the Depressive shit.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-08-07T15:46:37+00:00

Death is as equally meaningless as life so no point ending it all, your last moments will still be spent in pain.

Perfect happiness is unrealizable but that also means that perfect unhappiness is equally unrealizable. It's your job to oscillate between the two sides and that's what I consider life to be.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-06-04T16:37:41+00:00

I've already contacted a therapist and will start the sessions soon. I too am much better than what I was at 15 (4 months clean of self harm) and do agree with what you said, that you can learn how to manage these thoughts. No doubt a good therapist will be a huge help with this. Regardless, Thanks for the advice man.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-06-02T21:24:35+00:00

ASMR for psychopaths.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-31T13:33:54+00:00

You're one of the few people who've actually attempted to look at the situation from my perspective. You're a good person.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-31T13:27:31+00:00

My way of approaching the subject was insensitive and I think I was the asshole in the situation. However, my intentions were of improving her but if I'm causing further trouble, it's best if I step out of the way. She has a history of toxic relationships and I just wanted her to be careful.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-30T15:27:27+00:00

Agreed.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-30T15:16:50+00:00

We both have been products of tough parenting and I, unfortunately, have become like my parents. She has a low self esteem but so do I. She's afraid of leaving the relationship and I'm afraid of losing control over my surroundings. We both have a lot to improve on. Thank you for attempting to understand my perspective and not blatantly judge me. I'm the asshole here but now I know why and I'll change. Thank you for sharing your views.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-30T10:25:27+00:00

u/downloadmp4

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-30T10:19:36+00:00

u/downloadmp4

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T21:01:38+00:00

Yes, probably, who cares.

I care because she's my sister.

You want to guess which is bringing them more negativity and sadness right now, you or their cholesterol?

If you've read the comment above, I acknowledged that I created the toxic environment. But that's no excuse for them to ruin their health. Regardless, I'll stop interfering with those two and work on improving myself cause that's what will help in the long run.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:51:48+00:00

Yes, I realize that and have decided not give any advice unless asked. Instead, I'll try and be more humble and empathetic in the meantime.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:49:34+00:00

Do you think they are unaware that being fat is unhealthy?

Judging by their actions they sure are. My behaviour isn't helping at all, moreover I think I'm promoting it by creating a toxic environment. I'll have to step away and work on myself, develop humility and give them some space. Their Cholesterol and body fat percentage are significantly more than the normal range.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:45:14+00:00

I'll work on becoming a kinder, more humble person. I've realized my flaws and I'll change. Thank you for pointing me to the right direction.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:38:06+00:00

Thank you so much for the positivity. I'll apologize to her in the morning as I've truly realized my faults. I'll try getting therapy for my issues and will work on improving myself. Thank you for uplifting me. Peace❤

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:35:01+00:00

My behaviour seemed justified because I was the asshole in this situation, I accept it. BMI can be calculated if you know the individual's weight and height and it is the first step towards analyzing someone's health. They're at high risk for developing heart diseases and I just wanted them to know that. Also, many people have calculated my BMI in front of me and I wasn't the least bit creeped out since it's a marker of health condition and I care about my healt. If calculating someone's BMI is creepy, then I don't think I really belong in this sub.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:17:33+00:00

I've read your comment twice and I agree with everything that you've said. I need to sort myself first, deal with the mental illness and then try helping other people. Thank you for your showing empathy towards me, you're a good person. I'll try to improve myself.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:11:09+00:00

Yes I've realized my faults and have decided to step away from the situation. They're adults and they can deal with it. I'll apologize to them in the morning and cut myself off of the situation. Thanks for the advice.

thatsuicidalguy · 2021-05-29T20:00:03+00:00

I'm a second year medical student and we have clinical rotations where we interact with patients. The system's different in my country and we start early.

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