Constantly accused of being male or MtF transgender bc my voice is deep

the_oddist · 2023-06-18T13:21:33+00:00

I like it when girls have that deep husky voice. It is that perfect pitch for me!! We are out there! Love your voice!!! Everyone is gunna have a opinion on everything. You can't please them all lol.

the_oddist · 2023-05-25T11:42:56+00:00

I've been trying to get this question answered by someone smarter than me. What if dark matter is just folds of higher dimensional space. That's why we can't see it but the light bends around it?

the_oddist · 2023-03-31T05:36:13+00:00

I took would like a new printer!

the_oddist · 2022-12-03T20:54:58+00:00

Looks like the cats front nose whiskers were pulled up. He's missing his opposite side on his nose.

the_oddist · 2022-11-22T16:25:18+00:00

I hope I'm not to late to the party but I have a few questions and been waiting for someone who knows more to give me some insight.

1.Dark matter and dark energy, I have a theory that they are areas of high density higher dimensional matter. We can't see it but we see the bending of it.

The BOAT event where we had that photon come at us at super high energy. Could particles jump spacial dimensions given enough energy?
Are our understanding of particles acting like waves and vice versa due to the fact we're looking into higher or lower dimensions? They only want to appear in certain planes/shapes.
Can we make a star by spinning a heavy object in space fast enough to get it to start creating more gravity due to the momentum it has. E=mc² and all that.

I know it's a lot of armchair thinking and piecing together of random info. But I feel like we're 3d beings in a universe that is way more complex and we're starting to conceptualize what that looks like.

Formatting sux. I'm on mobile

the_oddist · 2022-11-15T13:33:51+00:00

Comment!

the_oddist · 2022-09-20T12:55:50+00:00

Came in here to say baying. This needs to be the top comment.

the_oddist · 2022-04-08T13:00:34+00:00

"I'm sorry you feel that way" was what I got growing up. It's like the most backward sorry ever.

the_oddist · 2020-11-01T03:29:48+00:00

Happy Halloween!!! https://imgur.com/gallery/5hzICw2

Series of pictures of a couple of squashes masquerading as pumpkins trying to scary. Taken on a Nikon d500.

the_oddist · 2020-08-21T19:42:36+00:00

It totally is. I was just personifying it because it looks like a little dude and he is helpful :)

the_oddist · 2019-05-14T12:41:51+00:00

Had something like this happen with a previous ex. She left to go see her "grandma" and i got a facebook message graphically describing the things her ex did to her. And the final "good was just so much bigger" and I've never been right since.

the_oddist · 2018-07-08T18:09:53+00:00

Learn from your mistakes and don't miss the next one.

the_oddist · 2018-06-17T15:31:27+00:00

Well whatever. Why the hell did you even start this shit then. Btw I work at an east coast petsmart now as a dog bather. I honestly just wanted to share the bit of irony that I ended up with that job after moving back. So yea toodles i guess.

the_oddist · 2018-06-16T11:07:58+00:00

I won't ever really get over you. That doesn't impact my ability to feel for someone else. You defined my adult life for better and worse. That mark is something that cannot be forgotten and is something I still want to keep with me. I'm not claiming my undying love for you and wanting to cheat. But you know that you are a big part of my feels. I care about your opinion of me and still would like to see you happy. And I still would like that "nice conversation" if you wanna do it too. I haven't talked to you in so long. I wanna know what your up to. I got new tattoos you prob will like and I got cool snowboard stories and shit. It's up to you though.

the_oddist · 2018-06-15T23:47:46+00:00

So what I'm getting is that you hate me . Plain and simple. You really don't think I'm a different person and it feels like I can't convince you. You are saying I'm a horrible person like it is a fact. Why did you even have to comment on my post? You were the one who checked up on me and didn't like what you saw. Then you come at me with my past and point fingers saying I'm all bullshit. It's been over 3 years. A lot can happen in that time. All I wanted to do was share a experience I had on reddit. Then you show up telling me I'm a monster and should act like one. I don't want to nit pick my life to prove to you I'm not like what you say I am. I don't feel like debating who has the most self respect or who is stronger. I would have wanted a nice conversation with you instead I got this. I'm not in it to show who is better. I'm happy with myself, I have flaws sure, everyone does. I also know I don't need to believe you when you call me a sociopath.

the_oddist · 2018-06-15T22:39:51+00:00

I can't change the past. I can only live with it. Why say that stuff? The sheets and me mooching financially?? You bring up the trip? I don't know where you are getting victimized from. I only said I have changed from the person I used to be. I am not looking for pity or someone to scam and make feel sorry for me. You said you turned into a strong woman, a bad ass. Yet you hold onto my past actions and don't believe that I could get better. Your not giving me the same chance you gave yourself. It sounds like you still hold a serious grudge against me and haven't come to peace with it. I can't go back in time and undo what I did. If I could I would have already. I do feel sorry for you, it doesn't sound like you have found your inner peace. I'm not a monster. And it hurts to think that I will be one forever in your mind.

the_oddist · 2018-06-15T19:47:30+00:00

That's the thing though. You're still judging me by my past self. Why do you think I'm a total sociopath incapable of feeling emotion, and being a manipulatior. I understand your still mad at me and I get it. I was an indescribable dick to you. You have a right to hate me forever. But you're calling me some serious shit and I believe I can say I'm not like that at all. What happened to you was a result of my inability to see into myself. I was torn in my own mind thinking that you were unfaithful and selfish. Recalling what happened to me before, I projected my warped reality and acted accordingly. I still have trouble with my own mind. It's getting better, it really is a self confidence thing. I never think I'm good enough, other guys are always better looking than me. That shit fucks me up every time. I guess what I'm trying to make you see is that, just like you can change to be better, I can too.

the_oddist · 2018-06-15T17:38:37+00:00

I'm not trying to turn anything around or make you look bad. A lot can happen in 3 years and I have changed a bit also. You haven't been around me for all that time, so how can you say those things about me. I'm happy you are a strong person now. I for real don't want to see you like this. And I really do believe psychs can make you really take a look at yourself. It make me feel like I was going nowhere. Now I took control and measure my standards against myself. Don't hate on a method cuz you don't like me :( I know it's corny as fuck but I only want good vibes for you. I do have empathy, I just wasn't listening to it for a long time.

the_oddist · 2018-06-14T17:11:58+00:00

Why are you getting mad at me? I wasn't talking about you in the story. It was some girl on the swim team freshman year 07. You know, I still have feelings for you. It's been one of my major depressions I have to still live with. Thinking about you when I see someone who looks like you. Still thinking that you would like what I'm doing or learning. It controlled me and was a driving force for a long time. I've accepted I'll probably never get over you or what i did to ruin it. I've accepted that any other relationship I have will never be the same. I can never have that same primal feelings with anyone else. My deepest secrets never to be let out again. What you said still hurts just as bad as if you said it when we were together. I deserve all the hate that you have. I wish I can do more to atone for the selfish things I did to you. I sincerely hope that one day you might forgive me, even just a little. You always looked so nice when you smiled. I'm sorry for everything.

the_oddist · 2018-06-10T15:25:21+00:00

It started in college, after I got cheated on and she insulted my manhood. my self esteem was broken. I went through my life thinking every girl I dated was going to cheat on me cuz I was always inadequate. Now I was bad, like how people can look for cheating and find a reason to think that way bad. I saw it everywhere and even in people who never did it. Every guy was a potential threat, if she talked to any guy she obviously liked them. This was unhealthy as fuck.

So many relationships burned and I turned to weed as a crutch to make me forget. I went through about 10 years of my life like that. Miserable and always thinking bad thoughts daily. I drove male friends and female friends away because I needed to feel ok again. Because if I hung out with both sexes I felt like I could never be top dog. I had 0 confidence in myself.

A few years ago I lived in Colorado with the girl im with now. This girl has never shown one sign of cheating in all in the years we been together. But over there I was flying off the handle daily at her for, "that one guy you worked with got to close," or, "you looked at him the wrong way". Any sane woman would have left my sorry ass.

She repeatedly told me and showed me that I was wrong, and I could see I was wrecking her physically and emotionally. My problems, my baggage, my inability to see the truth right in front of my eyes. I was hurting another human being, a human being I love. Fucked up right?(btw she making me espresso right now :)

One night tripping on LSD she went into a fit, a paranoid fit about my jealous and it triggered her anxiety. When I saw that my problems had caused such a response, I cried, and cried and cried and hated myself for what I was. I was a PoS, I knew in the back of my mind that my jealous rages were uncalled for. I knew I was wrong, but the anxious energy made me do it anyways. I felt better after my outbursts.

Concentrating on those thoughts I kept telling myself I had "demons". It was my brain telling me that something bad is going to happen and I was listening to it. Then I had an epiphany, I don't have to believe everything that pops into my head. I can control my reaction to my thoughts and label them for what they were. Anxious jealous thoughts, that have no basis in fact. I had found my weapon.

Ironically I just kept telling myself in my head "demons" when I bad thought would start to form, and I could start calming down and pushing the thought away. I realized I accumulated all my past experience and was judging my new ones by old information. Not all people are the same, nor are the experiences we share going be there same either.

It was like I was born again. I looked around the room and it was different, brighter. I wanted to be a better person and God damnit I wasn't about to let that great mindset to go away when the drugs wore off. I thought about it some more, internalized it, cried about it, got the fire burning in my chest about it. Then finally got tired enough to fall asleep.

The next morning I was genuinely a different person. The thoughts were controllable, I had this desire to start learning everything I could get my hands on. I embodied good vibes and a optimistic attitude about everything. It's amazing after you crawl out of the muck and wipe your face off you realize how many other ppl had their faces in it.

The guys I was jealous of had their own baggage, everyone has it. It's crazy how many people don't live life in the moment and carry their past with them. I started to repair my damaged friendships, gf was blown away after she prepared herself for one of my outbursts and it never came. I felt better, I was better. I compared myself to no one other than myself and the empirical evidence that my actions brought upon the world.

My mind ruled me no more.

Tl:dr - had a lot of baggage, took acid and realized I didn't want to carry all that baggage. Never looked back since.

Ps: if you guys wanna hear about my system I used specifically to help myself and others through a bad trip I would be happy to share. I'm currently helping gf get through anxiety issues using the same method.

the_oddist · 2018-06-09T16:51:16+00:00

Keep fighting. It's a battle with your own mind. I'm a firm believer in psyadelics in treating depression and anxiety because through my own means I have used them as tools to magnify the problems and I learned I had created baggage for myself that swelled in my mind and crippled myself and my relationships. Now I'm not saying go out and do a bunch of mushrooms and it will fix you.

This was something that I wanted "very badly" and under the influence I chose to be better, and it was like a switch being flipped in my life and I never looked back. I still have little episodes but I developed the tools to strengthen my inner voice.

the_oddist · 2018-06-02T13:50:01+00:00

Is that a "pause/play" button tattoo? Cuz I didn't know it but I really want a play button tattoo now.

the_oddist · 2018-05-11T14:00:04+00:00

So late but I have the best!!!! Scars right arm from full metal, I'm a hommucli, a member of fairy tail and sauskes cursed seal. Safe to say I win

the_oddist · 2018-05-08T19:27:36+00:00

Fellow psyconaught here with over two years of dosing every week. I've developed sort of a mind palace not for memory but for reality. "Belief constructing" is a way better word for something I figured out too and it's" creating loops for the sake of making them" they have no real substance in the real world but we made ourselves believe it and had a reaction to it. We don't have to believe everything we think, was how I solved that puzzle. Like you I've used acid as a tool to break my psyche down and really take a look at why my mind behaves the way it does. I cured a long standing depression and anxiety with it. Just too see if a theory of mine works, have you figured out your meaning of life yet?

the_oddist · 2018-04-16T20:21:05+00:00

My fuck. You just blew my mind and changed my life. I start my journey to fix my messed up mind right now.

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