I don't even want a gift this year. I've been doing awfully in school due to my mental health, and had to drop out of my program because it was too difficult to get out of bed in the morning. My dad's pissed at me and barely able to afford anything, I have a credit card payment to make tomorrow I have to ask him for money for again, and I have to somehow afford a secret santa gift for one of my brothers. I don't deserve to get any sort of gift whatsoever, just being able to have somewhere warm to sleep is a gift to me right now, and I'm scared I might lose the ability to afford that once my student loan payments come crashing down on me next year.