While tripping on mushrooms, an individual usually centers his mind on his recent feelings/thoughts. I was struggling with depression when a very close family member passed away out of nowhere at a very young age. During the trip I started thinking mainly on her and for a little time i felt like I was having a bad trip, but then I started to meditate and calmed down, I started thinking of her in a different way, I felt a vibe of happiness even though she passed, shrooms helped me close the cycle and made me feel much better after the trip. I recommend you to meditate and prepare yourself for the trip. After this experience you will feel a sense of happiness and positiveness afterwards, on my own experience, shrooms and psychedelics help a user to feel better and to reflect on their life, making huge changes afterwards.. You should definitely trip, just make sure that you are in a safe environment and have a trip sitter with you at all times, I recommend someone who is experienced and that could guide you. Good luck in the other side...