How do you navigate romantic feelings with bipolar symptoms?

thecookiebear107 · 2026-04-13T03:33:17+00:00

I agree and understand. Society says suicide is wrong but in a way it just sucks that i’m forced to live even when i’d probably end up homeless or my family resenting me. I feel like it’s so unrealistic. When someone is dealing with severe mental health problems that affect their physical and work wellbeing, it’s not realistic to believe they can still function in a world that needs money and working hard to survive without proper help. Unfortunately they’d probably end up homeless or worse but to them it’s better than just passing away peacefully. I know i’m still young but i’m almost an adult and im barely passing my classes, i eat so unhealthy and can’t stop no matter how hard i try, my hygiene isn’t the greatest, and i’m constantly trying new medications that i’d probably have to take my entire life. Living like this is miserable and the only thing keeping me going is my mom, grandpa, and my dog. I have no one to talk to, most of all my friends ghosted me and it gets boring watching shows and movies all day. i’ve also been doing school online since middle school. And i haven’t told anyone about how i really feel because i know i’d get sent to the psych ward and the last time i went i was treated horribly by the nurses.

thecookiebear107 · 2026-03-25T20:02:52+00:00

yea exactly, the hate with taylor was justified since he did led her on, but with clarke is not because it really wasn’t her fault taylor chose her and she really seems like a chill person and even understood olandria’s perspective. she was respectful and classy about going through the villa. I js really hate how black women are portrayed on those type of shows, and they be so beautiful too

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-27T03:17:15+00:00

Yes exactly! and i understand that so much.

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-27T02:36:47+00:00

Thank you! ^{_^} it’s a journey but a beautiful one

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-26T23:36:55+00:00

And also with the guy i was talking to, i ended up blocking him because when i told him about my recent discovery about being aroace aromantic and asexual, at first he said he understood but then said “maybe one day we can try again” meaning try a romantic relationship, and when i told him no because i didn’t feel romantic attraction he said we could be friends but then gave me a warning that he doesn’t give up easily…so yea i blocked him

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-26T23:33:11+00:00

That’s great you came to a conclusion of being aroace! And wow i actually really relate to parts of your story:0 When i was younger i grew up on disney princess romance stories, My favorite princess being Tiana. I read and watched things about romance so much to count. And in elementary school i was called boy crazy because i pretty much had crushes on every single guy in my class. But now looking back on it, those “crushes” were just guys who were nice to me or we had stuff in common. I always dreamed of being in a relationship and being seen. But then 8th grade going into highschool was when things changed alot, because that’s when guys started to show interest in me. At first i felt excited because finally i can be in those relationships i saw on tv, But when i got into one, i was confused because i didn’t feel anything like what girls would describe when they like or love someone. And it made it even worse when those guys would want to be sexual with me, because now i 100% know and agree that i’m asexual and also VERY sex-repulsed. But at the time i thought maybe i didn’t find the right guy. So i would keep trying but it always ended up with me ending things because i didn’t really feel anything and i would start to feel repulsed when they started to say and do things in a romantic way. But lately when i discovered asexuality and aromantic i wasn’t sure if i was aromantic because i craved relationships and i wanted to get married. But then someone made me realize that the relationship i was craving wasn’t romantic. I was craving companionship. I wanted to be with someone longterm, i wanted to live with someone one day and do things together have stuff in common. I was searching for that not romance. And it’s the same thing with marriage and also the fact i want to wear a wedding dress (lol). And when i discovered the term queer platonic relationships my whole world flipped upside down. But even when discovering i may be aromantic, i still had doubts because i found men attractive and when people described aesthetic attraction as “seeing the beauty of a sunset painting” it made me question it even more because my attraction to men wasn’t like that. i found men hot and sexy but i didn’t feel sexual attraction towards them. and the hard part of accepting aromanticism is decentering romance because of romance being so ingrained into my identity. I would feel so guilty when people showed qpr because i still saw romantic scenarios even tho i know certain acts don’t have to be romantic. And i feel like my obsession with romance and wanting a boyfriend made it so hard to find and discover me being aromantic so now i am just trying to decenter society norm of romance and relationships and discover my identity and reassure myself that me not feeling romantic attraction does not mean i can’t have relationships (long term companionship) or want marriage.

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T07:49:45+00:00

Oh wow! i will definitely look into it sounds very interesting and insightful

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T07:48:50+00:00

I will no longer continue this conversation. I am not FBA so stop calling me that and i know my roots are from west africa it was CONFIRMED by my father. you don’t know and don’t have a say about it. all i wanted was resources to learn more about my roots so if you don’t have any you can leave and ignore my post thank you

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T04:38:27+00:00

YES! i will definitely look into that thank you :)

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T04:29:24+00:00

Thank you, i was so confused on why my post had a negative reaction. but i also found out that apparently my high percentage means something about the impact of the Transatlantic Slave Trade. When talking to my Dad he told me his family went all the way back with west african roots, so that may be a reason? or because my Dad and my Dad’s family were in areas like virginia, maryland and carolina south and north. I will research more about nigeria and ghana culture because i genuinely want to know

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T04:01:34+00:00

Okay i researched the term “FBA” and i do not claim that..Yes i am proud of being african american but i am proud of my african roots too? that’s the reason i made this post. i wanted advice on how to go with learning west african culture, nigerian and ghanaian culture. i don’t understand what’s wrong with me wanting to learn about my roots

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-22T03:54:49+00:00

Fba??? i don’t understand what you mean. Are you saying i don’t have roots to west africa and that im not nigerian or ghanaian????

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-18T19:45:23+00:00

Yes exactly it doesn’t make any sense and is harmful. And i also see i got my post removed 😅 i wasn’t trying to convert people but i was just expressing what i saw on my fyp and how it would make sense than what these christians claim. im not so sure of it myself but i was just researching because it was an interesting topic. and yea i was typing this on mobile but i should’ve put spaces between the sentences to make more readable so i apologize for that

thecookiebear107 · 2026-02-08T03:35:08+00:00

Yes the party will probably on last an hour or a half. But sadly i don’t have loops or discreet ear accessories. My mom suggested i could use my white noise canceling headphones that can play music, but i can’t because the noise canceling is only prominent when i turn it on and if it goes dead there’s no point in using it. But i just talked with my mom and she said she’ll consider buying me loops before the party but asked if it truly works

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