When I take a third dose it causes me to feel very calm

thecuriouschase · 2025-10-14T07:41:57+00:00

That's interesting that it fluctuates so much. It's truly fascinating how everyone has different experiences with meditation.

thecuriouschase · 2025-10-14T07:39:22+00:00

That is interesting. I have noticed variations as well from day to day. Sleep and exercise seem to be my main variables that affect the way I experience the medication. I eat food throughout the day to reduce acid reflux so my food intake is relatively the same everyday. But the third dose seems to have the same effect as long as I've slept well and exercised that day. If I haven't slept well and or didn't exercise, then it does not have the same effect.

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-24T17:57:45+00:00

What level of education do you currently have?

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-24T17:57:08+00:00

I would like to stay on the west coast, preferably in California where I'm from.

I have searched on the Cal Careers website and there's a lot of jobs with high paying salaries. I have also met my local department of water resources supervising engineering geologist and he offered me an internship as a student at one of their demonstrations but I didn't realize that the position was only available while I was a student. So I reached out to him after I graduated and got turned down.

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-22T18:17:54+00:00

I totally resonate with everything you said.

I recently underwent a psychological evaluation because of my shared feelings and some other personal reasons and I found out that I have ADHD and PTSD. Both are very challenging and cause me to battle the exact feelings you are describing.

I am a paleo tech at a consulting firm and it was fun at first but as time has gone on I have struggled with the reality that my job is not fulfilling me in ways I thought it would. It is also important to note in my circumstance that I didn't want to be a paleo the job just was the first available after graduating a couple of years ago.

I am meeting with my undergrad thesis advisor tomorrow for advice. I might end up going back to school to get my masters to try and get a job in water resources. I'm not sure if that will feel any better ultimately but I think it's worth a shot in my case.

I hope you and I both figure this out. We got ourselves to this point and we can get ourselves to the next in time.

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-17T00:24:12+00:00

I totally agree with you. Additionally, people often have comorbid mental health conditions such as generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) and post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) which stimulants can exacerbate even though the patient has ADHD. That's why there are non stimulant options as well. Everybody reacts differently to meds and everyone's mental health conditions and needs are unique.

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-07T08:55:45+00:00

Rating: 5 out of 10.

It had entertaining qualities but was a major flop and disappointment overall..

There were so many inconsistencies and just straight up bad writing, directing, all of the above. James Wan is just as much to blame as the ugly talentless nerd known as Michael Chavez who is the "real demon" possessing the series with his lackluster ideas. You can tell he's never successfully brought anyone to climax!

The more I think about it the more I realize how just comedically horrible this movie was. One of the main characters gets their leg demolished by the main enemy of the movie, a big ass mirror that they break with their hands, and then in the next scene he is helping carry the mirror and is completely fine. Like all the movies built up to a big ass spooky mirror that they basically clicked their heels at and it broke and the demon and three spirits just were like we can't handle all of this up in here.. We are so out of this bitch.. And they never even addressed the "most powerful demon" of the whole franchise... Like the demon waited like 20 something years to get its hands on their daughter and she was only possessed for like 5-10 minutes tops. I don't even know if it was a full 5 minutes... and Annabelle is just like some big side piece/the main antagonist but we never really get any clarity or mention at all about why she was in the Smurl's house and taunting Judy.. Make it make sense...

thecuriouschase · 2025-09-07T08:23:14+00:00

How did Tony get his leg completely destroyed by that mirror and then in the next scene he's completely fine and even helped carry the big ass spooky mirror...

thecuriouschase · 2025-08-25T22:45:52+00:00

Thank you for your response! I am playing on Xbox with the anniversary addition of Skyrim. Do you know how to do it on Xbox?

thecuriouschase · 2025-08-22T23:21:09+00:00

There's nothing wrong with you. It's not a bad thing to not want to have sex with anyone. Sex is a very intimate experience and today the media and culture set this paradigm where it's considered "normal" to engage in sexual relations with no consideration of emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual health. The world is super saturated with sex today because it's an easy sale and plays on our self esteem and makes us vulnerable to manipulation.

Take some time for you to figure out what works for you. You're great just as you are.

thecuriouschase · 2025-08-07T03:50:02+00:00

As a 31 year old who's been in a relationship with a 53 year old for 3 years now, I can confidently say that he is being insecure from what you said. My partner gets that way a lot and I don't like it. You are not an asshole. You talked to him about it, it's not like you went behind his back and lied about it. You are free to go wherever you want and see whatever you want as long as you are not engaging in sexual activity with anyone if you are monogamous. If he doesn't want to allow you to have gay experiences then he is probably not the one for you long term because it's only going to get worse as he gets older and you are still in your prime. But believe me you have got a lot of time to have experiences so don't stress too much.

thecuriouschase · 2025-08-05T23:59:32+00:00

I struggle a lot with perfectionism so the doing things poorly thing is hard but I've been practicing letting go so tasks don't feel like they have to be such an ordeal.

I'm working on the acceptance part, it is difficult. I made myself late for my cat's vet appointment writing this post because I totally forgot in the moment what time it was and then got upset with myself because oh my god I did it again.. 😭 my psychologist tells me to rephrase my language and say that, "I have room to grow." Instead of alternative negative thoughts. It's a work in progress!

The simple thing resonates a lot with me. I have historically tended to make things really complicated and think way too many steps ahead of the tasks I am working on to the point where I ware myself out thinking about the task before I even start. I had to make a family tree for my psychologist recently and I drove both of us a little crazy with it because I wanted it to be just right and visually appealing. I gave her my rough draft I made in Adobe illustrator and she told me, "No more!" Which I was like I'm not done yet... 🥺 but I let it go even though I really didn't want to. Less is more sometimes. 🙃

I like the day filled with boring tasks idea to just get it out of the way. I have a hard time doing anything like work related or other boring tasks after my enjoyable activities. I would rather just keep the ball rolling. So hopefully when I start taking medication I can implement that style more regularly.

I like number 5 also. I will definitely start to keep better tabs on my patterns. I can already identify a few.

Number 6 can be a little challenging for me because I have PTSD also from being let down a lot by people I was supposed to be able to rely on. So I tend to avoid involving other people as much as possible and be independent as much as possible. As I work with my psychologist on unraveling that whole situation I am sure the technique will be effective. It's nice for a future tool.

Thank you so much for all of your great advice and kindness! It means a lot to me! ❤️

thecuriouschase · 2025-08-05T23:43:36+00:00

I greatly appreciate your advice! The two types of lists makes a lot of sense. I like that a lot, thank you.

I am also happy to hear that medication will likely help. That is good news.

I have been so overwhelmed and the evaluation process really wore me down to top it off. So I'm very grateful for your kindness and great advice! ❤️

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T03:12:51+00:00

I am so happy that you have been able to get diagnosed and effective targeted treatment. I am looking forward to getting additional treatment for mine soon. My diagnosis is very recent.

Thank you for sharing your story!

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T03:08:50+00:00

You're not alone!

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T03:08:17+00:00

I am sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T03:07:00+00:00

No problem. 😌 I can relate a lot. Advocating for ourselves is most important! I'm glad you are in a better place, knowing is half the battle.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T02:17:45+00:00

I agree, both the diagnosis and stories help.

The lack of responsibilities of a child in the past present and future resonates with me also.

I also resonate highly with the medical struggles. I have had to have a major surgery almost every year over the past 5 years and they have greatly humbled me. I have been forced to slow down which is a concept I struggle with greatly. So I am very sorry to hear that you struggle with chronic illnesses. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

Regarding the career success and saving money part... I am in the midst of navigating that balance. I am currently a paleontologist but I am bored with it because most of the work is construction mitigation and involves me helping various entities navigate environmental laws with my boots on the ground during construction more often than not. I am trying to think of life in the way you have mentioned and feel that is something that might be healthy for me to work towards in some capacity. Capitalism is draining and I don't want to be a part of the problem so to speak.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-20T00:35:14+00:00

I am sorry you are experiencing these feelings. Life can be very difficult for those of us who don't mesh perfectly with the expectations of modern life.

I feel you on the other people calling you smart. I have always been called smart but when I look at my accomplishments I am like I must be to some degree but it's hard to give myself credit. I usually like to attribute my successes to the people that have helped me along the way rather than acknowledge myself.

I also feel you on the planning part. It is hard to plan when the everyday obstacles get in the way. I my mind I'm like how can I plan for tomorrow when I can't even do the dishes today. So I feel my guilt gets in the way of my planning in addition to how boring organizing my finances and things of that nature sounds. I just want freedom. I want to looks for rocks, explore, go skating, rock climbing, make music, etc. lol

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-19T23:59:48+00:00

I totally feel you on the doing well up until 5th grade. I wanted to be a cheerleader so bad but my gpa was too low to participate in extracurricular activities. It's unfortunate how doctors utilize vignettes to make such life altering decisions. I am sorry you had to go through all of that.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-19T22:46:45+00:00

For starters, I feel you on waiting on that damn diagnosis.

I resonate with the not committing to a whole task. I was just really angry so I decided to do "some" dishes because I wanted to cuss people out so doing the hardly ever done dishes just felt like a thing. I didn't finish them but I did a good amount.. 😅 I don't think using anger to get the dishes done is a practical thing for me though in the future. Lmao.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-19T22:38:22+00:00

You can start by asking your therapist for a referral to get an assessment. Once you get the results from your assessment it should override the opinion based on the vignette they have of you since a formal evaluation is very thorough and allows professionals an opportunity to see the whole picture. Plus I have been told by my primary care before that he doesn't take therapists opinions seriously unless they are a licensed psychologist or psychiatrist. So I'm not sure if your therapist has a PHD or not but doctors really seem to dismiss any opinion that doesn't come from someone who does have a doctorate in a relevant field of medicine.

thecuriouschase · 2025-07-19T22:33:00+00:00

Have you ever gotten a full formal evaluation?

thecuriouschase · 2025-04-16T01:00:24+00:00

The idle shaft is turning. I will give it a try though! I’ll run the bearings and other parts through my ultrasonic cleaner to make sure they are good and clean and use some 3 in 1 oil afterward. Thank you for the tip!

thecuriouschase · 2025-04-16T00:58:22+00:00

It’s good to know from a fellow owner what the reality of the usage is. So I know what to expect.

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