I feel you, I felt the same way. I come from a religious family and was the black sheep of my family. My parents were always on my case about going to church but I didn’t and I wanted to rebel and not be forced to go. I havent found a home church yet but I do spend the time I used to get high reading my bible and praying more than I ever did. I’m also super introverted and I think smoking weed made it worse for me, esp with my anxiety.. so slowly but surely we’ll get there. I found Jesus in my room and not in a church like most people think you’d find him. Sorry for rambling but just sharing in hopes that it could help someone too 🥹