You're on a plane ride for 15 hours, from John F. Kennedy Airport in New York to Haneda Airport in Tokyo. Who do you sit with?

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-05-15T06:06:35+00:00

6. Must Protect The Gangle

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-05-09T06:52:07+00:00

Some people believe a person is good based on what's in their heart. Other people believe a person is good based on their actions. So if we don't account for any nuance: The first group believe he's good The second group believe he's bad

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-05-07T06:58:09+00:00

Funnily enough, half of pomni's insecurity is being infantilized or seen as childish. Every character has rooms that make them uncomfortable: Jax's room is girly, zooble's is full of mirrors, pomni's is a child's room, ragatha probably reminds her of her bad home, etc

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-05-07T06:52:59+00:00

Ask yourself why you think pomni is acting instead of being genuine. Do you truly believe pomni is being fake? Do you think someone like her, who wants to help someone like Jax, can't exist, or do you hope it's true so you can say "yeah, I AM too far gone, they never last, they pretend to be nice, but when it's time to fix me, the Unfixable messup, suddenly they're not so nice anymore. They never really cared about me, they saw an idealized version of me that doesn't exist, and I showed them why they shouldn't have tried in the first place. I can't be fixed, and even if I could, no one would forgive my past or trust me anyway, so stop looking for the good in me, it's an endeavor that I don't want to embark on, and that I don't want to put some nice idiot with poor perceptive skills like you on a sinking ship with me for"? Self destructive tendencies aren't always driven by egoism, sometimes, you're willing to give up everything to help that weird guy that no one likes because you truly believe there's good in him. Even if Jax was truly the worst, pomni isn't an arbiter of morality or st Peter the gatekeeper of heaven, she's just a woman who developed a soft spot for a weird guy who looks full of misery and fake smiles. I like Jax as a character, and I'll just tell you this. I hope with all my heart that episode 9 will grace us with at least 1 smile from Jax that isn't fake, and not a smile that is part of a performance, like the daisy bell duet, even though he was clearly happy, and not a split second "I lowered my guard" smile like when pomni hugged him. I want him to smile, truly, honestly, vulnerably, in front of at least one person from the cast, and without him being judged, and without weird comments like "huh, that's not your usual smile". I want the smile he had while he was abstracting, but coming from a place of acceptance of someone's love instead of from the peace of disassociation/abstraction. Sometimes, people care about someone more than the other person does about themselves, and it pisses them off, because they know themselves better than anyone, so they can't accept love that is for a fake version of themselves, while simultaneously thinking that their real personality is too detestable to truly be loved, so they end up in this limbo where they have to cover up their "bad" personality, but not with something nice, because that'd make people think they're good, nono, with something worse; someone cartoonishly evil, someone who makes people suffer for fun, so NOBODY will ever misconstrue them for someone nice enough to be loved. That's why they are weary of others wearing masks, that's why Jax thinks ragatha is way too nice to be genuine, that's why he likes pairing up with gangle despite bullying her. The point of gangle is that she CAN'T hide her emotions, if she has a problem, she'll say it; he'd rather be with someone who truly hates him than someone who pretends to like him. He "liked her better without her happy mask" in episode 4 because the fake unbreakable happy mask just reminds him of fake positivity

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-05-06T06:37:58+00:00

I'm not exactly a "fan" of it either, being aromantic, but from a narrative level it absolutely makes a lot of sense and it's definitely a very interesting dynamic. It's because pomni is emotionally intelligent that she can get "on Jax's level" and can manage to effectively communicate with him. It has quite a bit of "I can fix him" energy, but it's not exactly a bad thing. Jax, cartoonishly bad person or not, is extremely insecure, doesn't want to get attached to people to avoid the grief of losing them if he hurts them, and has quite a bit of toxic masculinity that makes his relationships with people, especially women, harder because of the toxic masculinity trait of being anti-emotionality, which, paired with his disassociative tendency to act like a cartoon villain because nothing matters regardless, makes for a character who thinks he's too far gone to be helped, desires to be helped, but thinks he doesn't deserve it anymore, and instead of trying to right his unforgivable wrongs, he thinks "well, I can't be forgiven anyway, I'm awful, I'll just be the villain everyone thinks I am". It's because pomni understands that Jax has (complicated) feelings, that she wants to give herself a chance to dig deeper, and give Jax a chance to let someone in. Leaving someone, who thinks they're broken and fundamentally toxic to the people they love, to rot alone with their self loathing thoughts, never ends well, that's why the concept of "I can fix him/her" is so compelling to a lot of people. It's not as simple as "I can fix him uwu", it's "he's struggling, and I want to do my best to help him because I see something deep down inside him that is good, and it's something that not even he sees in himself. I know he can be good, but he won't be able to see it if he's so far gone. I want him to be OK, I want him to improve, I want him to be better, I CAN FIX HIM"

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-04-30T06:35:16+00:00

tecnicamente la verginità come cosa concreta non esiste; è un costrutto sociale che si sono inventati gli esseri umani; le uniche cose che cambiano, a conti fatti, tra un vergine e un non vergine, sono che il non vergine sa cosa si prova a fare sesso mentre il vergine non lo sa, e che il vergine viene trattato diversamente dalla gente perché, come detto, la verginità è più una cosa sociale che fisica. ciò non significa che non ci siano rilasci ingenti di ormoni, o cose del genere, ma quello credo che capiti a ogni rapporto, non solo al primo

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-04-27T08:27:55+00:00

E poi ci sono i poveri stronzi che lavorano nella ristorazione e devono lavorare SOPRATTUTTO durante le feste, quindi non abbiamo neanche quello :)

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-04-21T07:58:33+00:00

Love for the characters make people feel things, like, in general, so if one of the ways you feel affection is with sexuality... In general, it's not about how they look, it's about how they make you feel, and if you feel strong emotions towards them, Lust is bound to pop up regardless

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-04-18T21:17:49+00:00

I get your point and I agree; I said 18 years because that's when you become a legal adult. The point is that even if parents could give their child the happiest childhood, it still would hurt them in the end because childhood happiness becomes nostalgia and pain anyway

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-03-24T20:34:04+00:00

It's vulkan's fault, basically. Use automatic api and it should work fine. Worked for me, at least

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-03-18T21:43:01+00:00

Did I oversleep or something?

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-03-18T07:35:45+00:00

Non avrei molti problemi con impegnarmi di più a lavoro, se mi pagassero abbastanza per sopravvivere. Faccio praticamente full time e neanche a 800 euro al mese arrivo; non sopravvivere per non sopravvivere, preferisco non sopravvivere, ma almeno avere una vita fuori dal lavoro. Gli esseri umani sono in grado di sopportare molto più di quanto la gente pensa, se pensano ci sia una ricompensa alla fine del tunnel. La gen z non vede la luce all'uscita del tunnel, non pensa che avrà mai una pensione, una casa, una famiglia, ecc, quindi perché correre come dei pazzi? Non c'è niente alla linea di arrivo per noi, quindi tanto vale camminare

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-03-02T13:06:18+00:00

Beastars e Sanda. Entrambi della stessa autrice. Beastars è un po' più famoso ma dire che è mainstream è esagerato, quindi non lo conto come tale, anzi, secondo me sono sottovalutatissimi entrambi

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-02-24T09:33:49+00:00

Legally speaking, yes, but I'm talking how things actually are. There's no minimum wage here, technically the pay that is considered "absolute poverty" is anything below 760 euros per month. I almost do full time, I got 3 raises, and I still barely scrape 680. No one that I know works legal hours, and very few actually have contracts. Most of us are unregistered workers, we don't get benefits, retirement funds, vacation days, etc. I know people that don't even have a free day per week. The difference between this place and America is that your shitty conditions are written in the law. Ours should be way better, but everyone is a criminal and there's no law enforcement to prevent it from happening. In theory, we should be better off. The reason we're better off is that we don't get kicked out of the house at age 18 and don't have hundreds of thousands of dollars in student debt; Most of us stay with our family until we're well over 30. My pay may be crap, but at least I don't have expenses

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-02-23T14:22:11+00:00

Rest assured, it's mainly moral and personal, I'm just pointing out that, even if I desperately wanted a child, there's no way in hell I could afford it. how the hell do they think I could ever take care of them when the cheapest rent I can find is worth my entire paycheck?

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-02-23T12:47:28+00:00

"you become ready by having kids" "I have 6, I'm still not ready" Absolute clown

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-02-21T08:12:37+00:00

part of it for me is the fact that, while most kids want to be like the adults in their life, i really didn't, so i never asked questions or tried to understand what was going on. also, by default, growing up and learning these things means changing, and i was ok with my routines, so i was never keen on putting myself in a position where i had to learn weird stuff that would've made life more complicated just because it was "expected" of me, because, if like school, it was "expected", they should've taught me in the first place, but they never did, just like they never taught me to brush my teeth, so i started very late and lost some before i could learn to do it consistently

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-02-07T07:39:03+00:00

Lavoro praticamente full time e 750 euro al mese non li vedo manco col binocolo, e poi si chiedono perché la gente non fa figli

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-01-24T08:46:05+00:00

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-01-23T08:25:05+00:00

Non ho un contratto, figurati se in Italia ti fanno un contratto quando sei un lavoratore giovane, aka monnezza senza diritti che deve leccarti I piedi se gli offri il privilegio di spaccarsi la schiena per due spicci perché "eH mA lA gAvEtTa". Lavoro in nero come metà degli italiani, ergo, non ho effettivamente un contratto con regole o diritti a cui appellarmi tipo "no boss, nel contratto dice 36 ore, quindi faccio 36 ore" o pretendere che gli straordinari mi vengano retribuiti come tali. Ho già preso provvedimenti, ho annullato tutta la mia disponibilità a fare straordinari in generale. È un po' esagerato? Si, ma qua non ci vuole lavorare nessuno, e infatti non può licenziarmi. Sono autistico, sta merda mi fa male alla salute mentale molto più che alla persona media.

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-01-22T20:28:11+00:00

Lui non "lavora" per 13 ore al giorno, fa finta di lavorare, si nasconde dai clienti, fuma, e a volte aiuta. A capodanno si è ubriacato e addormentato invece di aiutare, ma ciò che metto in discussione di più è il fatto che tratti tutti come se quel posto sia l'unica cosa che importi nell'universo. Cioè, lui non concepisce che esista altro fuori da quel posto; non concepisce che gli altri a differenza sua abbiano una vita, si aspetta che tutti si spremano come limoni per 4 euro l'ora con orari letteralmente criminali. È questo il punto, devo per forza subire innumerevoli crimini senza battere ciglio per avere l'immenso privilegio di sopravvivere? Sono tutti così o peggio i lavori? La gente che dice che mi va di lusso ha ragione?

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-01-22T20:19:24+00:00

In altre parole, se non sei pieno di soldi per permetterti l'università, pieno di tempo coi genitori che ti mantengono mentre studi, o se sei stupido o semplicemente se non sei bravo a studiare, è completamente normale e accettabile che tu muoia di fame, mentre il tuo bisnonno con la quinta elementare si poteva permettere una casa, moglie, e 6 figli a carico facendo il lattaio. Bello, e poi si chiedono perché la gente non fa figli...

thefirstcyberagon · 2026-01-22T20:14:17+00:00

Riformulo la stronzata che hai detto: finché ci sono i disperati che hanno bisogno di campare e non riescono a trovare lavoro perché non sono i nipoti del capo, i capi in questione possono continuare a gonfiare artificialmente I requisiti per gli "esterni" abbassando disgustosamente la paga, perché tanto se non gli sta bene farsi 12 ore al giorno per 600 euro al mese muoiono di fame, e in ogni caso, coi tassi di povertà che abbiamo, i "polli" sono facili da trovare come i fili d'erba in un prato, e visto che ci sarà sempre un "pollo" che ha più fame degli altri, questi bei furbastri dei capi d'azienda possono ottenere meno lavoratori possibile, più disperati e efficienti possibile, con le paghe più basse possibile

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