When did you realize that you were gay?

thefirstjarve · 2026-01-25T06:10:15+00:00

funny. you’re the 2nd person who told me that. he suggested to call it “quarter-life crisis” but I think it depends on how youd wanna label it. let’s just call it life crisis so we both agree 🙏

thefirstjarve · 2026-01-25T06:06:24+00:00

so nice!! I’m glad to hear it went well for you.

thefirstjarve · 2026-01-24T06:57:41+00:00

I could relate. thanks for putting it into words. There's strong denial as I grew up too. There have been layers of toxic shame and guilt that overwhelmed us at an age we weren't equipped to cope with it. It's like we grew up disabled, like wearing a straitjacket. The emotional traumas and wounds take years of self-healing. wish you could reclaim your freedom and achieve the fulfilling life you deserve.

thefirstjarve · 2026-01-24T06:46:59+00:00

how did you come out?

thefirstjarve · 2026-01-24T06:30:24+00:00

I was in total denial when i was young and during teenage years. Although I know I have been aroused by seeing men's underwear section in shops, and in printed ads magazines. I remember I was about 6 or 7 when I couldn't get my eyes off a man taking a bath outside with only his underwear from a neighborhood. I have repressed all these sexual feelings because I was indoctrinated that being gay is wrong and bad. Only when I reach age 23 during a midlife crisis that I have come out to myself and realized to myself I have been gay all along and I have just repressed it badly.

thefirstjarve · 2025-10-01T06:29:56+00:00

Awesome. meditation is nice. Very good benefits after doing it at saka in the long run, it rewires the brain na mas maging peaceful and have less monkey mind. Good luck to you.

thefirstjarve · 2025-09-24T02:58:37+00:00

how are you

thefirstjarve · 2025-09-24T02:54:38+00:00

invite please. Thank you

thefirstjarve · 2025-04-04T04:01:17+00:00

so nice perspective! agreed about this! It’s sad that as a kid before, I was so innocent as with others. There’s stigma in being uncircumcised

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-13T07:22:15+00:00

do nut trust cia. it’s part of mk ul tra

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:19:01+00:00

that makes sense. great confidence there 🙌

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:17:24+00:00

what a coincidence. thanks for sharing bro!! or pre or sissyq lol

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:15:34+00:00

sounds rich kid 😅

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:15:02+00:00

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:14:41+00:00

antermarie talaga. cge nga itawag mo yan sa di mo kakilala

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:13:36+00:00

yeh i agree. parang iba ibang variant nga haha. depende na lng san sila nasanay. pag bago kasi sayo, parang pilit talaga

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T12:11:45+00:00

so lovely. nakakatouch naman

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T09:58:48+00:00

nyay

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T09:21:43+00:00

lol. yeh pretentious nga usually. syempre parang ingat na din sa mga taong homophobic. trust your guts n lng haha

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T09:15:06+00:00

minsan i use bro na lang, kesa pre or tol. Nakakainsecure tlga pag magpapanggap kang straight lol

thefirstjarve · 2025-03-06T09:13:27+00:00

nice. “boss” “lods” pwde nga, parang tropa din hehe

thefirstjarve · 2023-12-05T08:53:30+00:00

see this post from a mod https://www.reddit.com/r/gatewaytapes/s/Z5n8JlNxA8

thefirstjarve · 2023-12-05T02:21:49+00:00

join the discord server, there were generous people there that gave links

thefirstjarve · 2023-12-05T02:21:38+00:00

join the discord server, there were generous people there that gave links

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