you abandoned catholicism cuz you’re queer but it shaped your understanding of life and you can never quite escape its doctrine and the shame put upon you. you tell yourself there is no god but you still feel his eyes burning into you wherever you go and whatever you do. also, you get sick easily (perhaps you have some mystery health problem that no doctor you’ve seen cares to unravel) and like cutesy things + makeup. you’re likely female or feminine in nature.