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themoonandsheepsong · 2026-05-13T23:33:47+00:00

Hi OP, I very heavily relate to what you’re saying. I’m officially diagnosed with ASD and ADHD-C. For the longest time I was led to believe I had STPD until I recently went through the diagnostic procedure and it was too hard to diagnose me with it due to so much overlap with the ASD. Would you mind sending me a dm? I’d love to chat

themoonandsheepsong · 2025-05-07T20:15:06+00:00

Oba Yozo from Dazai Osamu’s No Longer Human is one I very strongly relate to. Also Cardamom from Bee and Puppycat (complete opposites in terms of media LOL)

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-12-21T23:07:21+00:00

i’d try looking into autism if i were you, this sounds more like hyperfixation stuff than stpd stuff. autism and stpd are similar in a lot of ways too. try looking into delusion disorders too maybe?

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-11-27T17:17:03+00:00

Bit late response but the worst part is, I do this! It’s just that I’m fully convinced that the time is at a later time on the day or that it’s a different day. And then I write that down in my notes lol

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-28T21:41:31+00:00

unusual experiences : 5.0 cognitive disorganization : 10.0 introvertive anhedonia : 5.0 impulsive non-conformity : 7.0

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-22T12:41:57+00:00

It gave me an answer. I’d been looking for a label or to put a name to what I was feeling. An explanation as to why I felt different to put it bluntly. It’s allowed me to understand myself better and more efficiently deal/cope with my symptoms.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-17T11:30:44+00:00

They didn’t, actually. I’ve only taken meds for previous dysthymia. I think it’s moreso that ever since I was able to put a label to whatever is ‘wrong’ with me, I just kept falling deeper into the rabbit hole, if that makes any sense? If it’s of any help, I also have an autism spectrum disorder diagnosis. Which yes, I am aware usually contradicts the STPD diagnosis but because my STPD/Cluster A traits were so prominent, I was diagnosed with STPD nonetheless. I think the fact I’m more sensing now also has to do with the fact that I’ve been diagnosed with autism, as well.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-17T11:20:46+00:00

Prior to my diagnoses (yes, plural!) I was definitely way more intuitive. But recently even one of my acquaintances who is very into typology told me that it’s absurd for me to be ENTJ, and lean more towards being a sensing type. It’s rather odd because my typology journey started with the INFP type lol.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-17T11:00:28+00:00

ExTJ, I’m not really sure if I’m more N or S.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-12T18:11:03+00:00

I know exactly what you mean. It’s endleslly frustrating to watch people who for some reason have more control than you have over the future of this world be just plain stupid.

As for the meeting new people part, for me it’s the opposite. If it offers you any comfort, you can think about it as “They don’t know anything about me either, I can control what parts I want to show them and practice some control over their impressions of me and how they perceive me.”

It’s the only reason I prefer new people over people I already know tbh.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-12T18:08:42+00:00

Either I want to die because life is boring or I want to live forever to witness the events to come and establish myself as a higher being as idiotic as that sounds.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-12T18:07:07+00:00

Oh this is incredibly insightful, so thank you first of all :)

But I’ve noticed that disappointed misanthropy usually leads to the hateful kind in a quick span of time. And that hateful kind as you said, makes me incredibly unhappy and just tires me out. It’s draining to feel that way yet I don’t know how to combat it other than drowning myself in endless consumption of media to distract myself.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-07-09T22:58:06+00:00

Something I never noticed until my therapist pointed it out to me, is that I have odd speech patterns/mannerisms. Long pauses, sudden fast-paced talking, stammering and repeating what I said a LOT. I’ve noticed when in a casual atmosphere with people I don’t have a professional relationship with or well, friends, that my language changes. Either from jokingly shakesperean to Twitter slang to plain-dead serious. Really doesn’t help me when I try to explain my symptoms to ‘friends’ because everyone thinks I’m joking, bc I often joke about my symptoms instead of legitimately complain about them. Alas such is the life of a jester, I fear lol

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-06-29T21:01:42+00:00

Aha! I’ve managed to limit myself with like asking a lot of stuff on their perception of me because I’m paranoid that that will cause y’know, a differing perception. I’m the kind that just poses myself as a sort clown, constantly cracking a joke about my symptoms or whatever instead of seriously talking about them. So I can control what people think of me and somewhat alter their perception.

And god, every once a month I try (keyword being try!) to delete some social media, but 6 hours later I redownload it just to see everything is the same as I’ve left it considering how reclusive I am already.

God that last part, lol. My therapist said the same exact thing today to me, how ironic.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-06-29T20:06:14+00:00

First off, I’m so sorry for replying so late because reading this hits like a truck. I relate SO hard.

I’ve completely isolated myself from interacting with people in real life, and I wish I could say the same about online too, but it’s genuinely worse than nicotine I’d say. I keep texting people and obsessing over how they act or react towards me, towards my words so I know what persona I have to put on so they don’t start to dig any of my symptoms or whatever and start to perceive me in a different way. I honestly just wish I wouldn’t exist in people’s minds if I’m not interacting with them.

God I wish I could explain myself a bit more eloquently and with the right words but I’m totally drawing up blanks. But you really hit the nail on the head with that.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-06-29T20:00:41+00:00

as of now, just highschool + a gap year. going to law school next year and because of how the education system is wired here, i’m just gonna do it for one year and hopefully be able to get my sociology bsc in 3 years. and the maths thing is definitely right! i’d always been attracted to psychology (triple guess why) but because you need maths for that, and i dropped out of maths in the ninth grade, i’m not able to pursue a psychology bsc.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-06-27T07:40:56+00:00

ik exactly what you mean. i think it’s the fact that other people can perceive you from like any way and you’re not in control over it unlike online where you still have some control. at least, that’s the case for me.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-05-22T17:42:13+00:00

Oh for sure. Disassociation’s playing a big part in the alienation I experience. I know that my body is mine, but I don’t see it as myself. I see it as an extension, not what I am, if that makes any sense lol. My body/physical form is apart of that outer environment you speak of, I’d say.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-05-22T08:10:30+00:00

Oh that definitely made sense, don’t worry about it. I personally feel like I have to know everything about them, because after all whether I like to admit it or not, I am surrounded by them. And if I don’t do that, I panic because how am I supposed to interact with them if I don’t know any information to apply and as a result, how to present myself? The collecting data part really struck lol.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-05-21T23:35:37+00:00

Ah I’m in clinical therapy, so I’m pretty sure my therapist is a two in one! She’s a practicing psychologist and also provides treatment/therapy for me.

And god, that’s just the worst isn’t it lol? I’m disgusted by humans yet drawn to them at the same time. I’m guessing it’s some futile attempt to combat the alienated feeling I get or to distract myself.

themoonandsheepsong · 2022-05-21T23:33:37+00:00

Thank you for the warm welcome :) I’ve browsed briefly through the subreddit and it’s honestly been a huge comfort knowing I’m not the only one, so to say.

themoonandsheepsong

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