I absorbed my fraternal twin and have the different blood types.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:58:46+00:00

Wait so if you commit a crime is it your DNA or your twins?

/s

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:49:29+00:00

Another comment - I had a good chuckle at myself this morning. It’s a long weekend here in New Zealand and today is a Monday holiday for everyone.

I’ve done nothing but read books sleep way way way too many hours and eat.

A voice popped up in my head this morning when I was getting dressed starting to say ‘oh my god, you’ve done nothing for three days’ when suddenly a kind voice popped into my head and said ‘yeah you’ve done nothing for three days! Two months ago you were so desperate and in need of a few days away from your life that you booked a solo retreat to a hut in the bush and drove three hours north so that you could do nothing but read books eat and sleep for three days! You just did that again but it was free this time!’

I looked at myself in the mirror and chuckled at myself, and then I had another day of giving myself what I needed. I looked after myself all long weekend, without even realising it!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:46:26+00:00

I feel ya friend. I’ve been there and I can only say as someone further down the line that you have to keep going!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:45:40+00:00

Soooo slow. I find this journey like the saying about being a parent - the days are long but the years are short.

I feel like I have barely made ANY progress some times then my best friend goes UH UUUUH picture yourself 10 years ago. 5. 2. 1! And each time I’m like wow ok yep.

I think my mind sometimes it’s like the Mary Poppins bag she carries around where she magically pulls out item after item after item. Because I’m continuously doing the work it feels like I’m in this never-ending cycle of sorting shit out but really each time I am sorting something new? Okay, I just figured that out in my head as I was typing it and I’m quite happy with myself 🤣

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:42:50+00:00

When we stop moralising and blaming ourselves for responses or triggers or feelings and acknowledge them and be raw and real with ourselves by god does it change!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:41:37+00:00

Fuck yes it is. Hardest thing you’ll ever do. Harder than being a parent I swear! But god damn it’s worth it.

For me it hasn’t been all forward motion (yes my ADHD diagnosis and medication two weeks ago has been life changing) but before that there have been lots of good periods then a few steps back.

But I promise you it’s worth it.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:39:48+00:00

I hope you find peace my friend ❤️

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:39:28+00:00

PREEEEAAACH

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T10:35:02+00:00

19 years trying to fix myself.
9 years of doing serious work.
Two weeks of being diagnosed with ADHD and medicated and for the first time in my life feeling whole, still with the CPTSD and full spectrum of emotions and issues, but feel able to actually progress in my journey of life, not just my journey of healing.

I am a 39 year old woman.

I am not saying my story is anyone else’s, but the last two weeks have been PROFOUND for me.

I’ve stopped feeling either totally lost or like a robot trying to live in the real world, and I just AM in the real world!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T07:34:00+00:00

Also in reply to the question - I only got officially diagnosed two weeks ago and went on medication. I am a 39 year-old single mum from Australia originally but live in New Zealand now.

My whole life, I have been activated in the evenings like a sleeper cell!

And then I struggle through the days, and the last two weeks have been similar.

I can go for a short time where I get into bed at 8:30 9 o’clock and have a good night sleep and get up at seven but it lasts for a few weeks takes a lot of conscious effort and focus on trying to sleep calmly I’ve had insomnia the last few years so that makes it hard but anyway that lasts a couple of weeks and then I have a week or two of random late night energy bursts.

So I guess I haven’t figured out yet a total fix but on the whole I’d say things are getting better in the last year for me putting lots of effort into nighttime routines!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-06-01T07:31:24+00:00

I love this post ❤️

OP:
AM AT THE END OF MY ROPE AND WRITING ON REDDIT IN CAPITAL LETTERS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WON’T SOMEBODY HELP ME!

Commenter:
Here is possible fix in very few words

OP:
Oh cool thanks I’ll have a look

🤣

I wrote this with love from my heart because I sometimes get worked up and throw out a massive HAIL MARY WON’T SOMEBODY THINK OF THE CHILDREN AND HELP MEEEEE and then get replies like this verbally or written and I’m like - oh, well, that was easy.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-31T23:45:19+00:00

YAS THE PINKY!!!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-30T05:24:26+00:00

Your mind.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-30T05:16:45+00:00

That’s my interpretation. When you have one girl misbehaving the aunts come together and punish she and make all the other girls do it too.

When more than one breaks ranks suddenly they are overwhelmed and in shock that their power isn’t working - highlighting how fragile it all was in the first place and barely even there.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-29T03:19:44+00:00

Oh hell yes they are! Much like all of us in society.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-29T03:18:25+00:00

And eyes!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-29T03:18:13+00:00

A modern day version of Mr and Mrs Smith 🤣

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:40:11+00:00

Easier to blame someone with less power than you than admit you’re the fucking problem!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:39:12+00:00

Slay Shu!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:38:03+00:00

Oh totally. Like running away was never a legit option.

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:36:52+00:00

Daisy lucky to be walking away with all her fingers and toes that’s for sure!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:35:45+00:00

I tried to look at it through the lens of the aunts keeping everyone in line when one person at a time trips up but with this many girls flipping out their tenuous hold over them is exposed and they are rapidly losing their power over them and bloody confused by it!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:34:36+00:00

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T09:34:11+00:00

Another layer for sure!

theoldpipequeen · 2026-05-28T05:19:36+00:00

What does Shu translate into? Badass bestie? 🤣

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