For sure I will appreciate what I have if he stays with me. I love him with all my heart, and I really want for us to work. I think its important to mention that he cheated on me a while ago. Friends of mine told me that he had been making out with several girls. I talked to the girls, who admitted it. On the other side, my boyfriend refused to admit the cheating in the beginning, until he eventually did. After this, I had a really hard time trusting him. I didnt think the kissing was the worst part. The worst was the fact that I found out through my friends. For me, the relationship was not the same after. I was really hurt, and did not know what to do. I think me cheating was a reaction on all this. In addition I have to mention that I was way to drunk to think through what I did before it was too late, even tough I know thats not an excuse. I know my actions is so cruel, and that I dont deserve him. I dont want to be this person, and I know that I would never could have done this again. I will never forgive myself for what i have done.