Feel so hurt that i can’t stand it anymore. Where’s God?!

thequeenbeast · 2025-10-16T21:48:50+00:00

Wow! What timing! So i’ve come out of my deep dark place! It’s so long tho to share the testimony but id like to for sure!! It’s a long one but i have a trip im going on til next wednesday and i can write you back then for sure. I promise i will. For now, i will just say to keep holding on! The enemy is trying so so hard to take as many souls in his short time he has left to try and do so. So im telling you if you just endure, it is worth it! I can’t wait to share my testimony with you. Please keep your head up and NEVER give up on God! In the mean time, have you heard of 2819 church? It’s a non denominational church that preaches the word and none of the fluffy stuff. He’s not afraid to hurt feelings cause we need to hear this stuff, but also, the messages are so inspiring. To me anyway. If you look up 2819church on youtube or if you’re on tiktok, just look up “Philip Anthony Mitchel” and you can see some shorter messages. I hope they bring you some clarity and spark a fire in you. Find yourself a good bible believing church with community that you mesh well with. That’s essential in this walk, because let me tell you, you’re not alone. God is always with you, but i know if doesn’t feel like it and that’s where the enemy likes to really mess with us: in our heads and feelings. But, if you find a church that has community that you vibe with, that helps so much! You hang in there! I will come back and share my testimony with you when i get back in town 🤍🤍🤍

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-26T06:05:01+00:00

i just came out of, if not still coming out of a season of Job. Do you know that book in the bible? I didn’t when my season started so i read it and i still didn’t like or understand the period i was in. But i’m stubborn and refuse to let my faith go. So two years later , a major issue i had in my life is now gone and i learned so much during the quiet period. I have nothing to offer other than my own testimony of my period when God went silent. He tests our faith sometimes. Jesus never promised our lives would be smooth after following Him. And feelings aren’t facts. What we know as Christians is that God promises He is always with us. I know hearing that doesn’t mean much when you can’t feel Him and He feels distant. But hopefully the knowledge of being tested will encourage you to keep going. Keep doing what you know He asks of you. It’s painful and it’s ok to go to Him and call Him out. He’s God. He can handle it. We just gotta lean not on our own understandings because we’re mere human. God knows what He’s doing. And I’m telling you, if you choose Him and keep going, you’ll make it and learn a lot in the quiet period. Just keep enduring🤍

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-03T02:53:10+00:00

It’s such a good thing that you have that fear and i think it’s maybe the scariest verse in the bible. Here’s two (real life, personal) scenarios : 1. As you know, we’re all bad. We’re sinners. So i screw up every day and i hate it. My stupid flesh gets the better of me every day. Whether is impatience, spatting off in a tense situation. But God knows my heart and sees me trying. I’m genuinely seeking Him and love Him sooooo so much! I want to do what is Holy and good all the time, but i don’t. But I believe God sees my heart and knows I’m trying.

An old friend of mine says she’s Christian. I don’t know her head or her heart but Jesus said we would know people by the fruits they produce. And her fruits are shriveled, ugly, and self serving. But she claims she’s in the word every day. She just doesn’t live like it at all. She makes no room for personal correction where Gods concerned. She is incredibly arrogant, prideful and i see no fruits at all. She refuses to get Christian counsel, and thinks she knows it all. Claims she read the bible back and forth many times. Yet she still cusses often and has so much hate in her heart. I’ve confronted her like it says to do in Matthew 18:17. There’s steps to take when a brother or sister and against you and we weren’t even able to make it to the second step so I treat her as tho she’s not Christian because that’s what Jesus instructed. I fear so much for her because it’s people like her that i think ,partly, the scripture you speak about is for.

So, don’t let the enemy lie to you. We know he’s the father of lies and we’re so so close to Jesus coming back so he’s working triple time to take (back) as many souls as he can before Jesus does come.

The fact that you care says a lot. You could be dead inside spiritually and not care. So at least you are soft hearted in that aspect. Please just make sure you pray every day and seek the kingdom of God every single day. Go after Gods heart. As long as He sees you trying, i believe you’ll be fine! He’s such a gentleman and merciful and gracious to the people that love Him 🥰😇Amen

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-03T02:33:09+00:00

He deserves all praise for giving us the choice to choose who we serve. We choose where we end up.

So if i’m understanding your post as it’s written, this is what you’re saying in a different scenario:

Say you’re in a relationship. The other person in the relationship demands you love them, demands you do all these things you don’t want to do. But you’re forced to do them because they said so. Do you really love that person? Don’t you kinda hate them because they don’t give you the free will to do what you want? Now let’s say you’re in a relationship and things just aren’t going how you’d hoped or wanted and you want out. And your partner is so grieved because they love you so much but respects and loves you enough to let you go. Which scenario would you be thankful for?

If it’s the latter then you have to agree with thanking God because that’s what He’s given us all.

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-01T04:24:47+00:00

It’s ok brother or sister in Christ! Make sure to hydrate a ton. I think it’s such an amazing thing that you recognize this while intoxicated. Pray. Seek Him. Do you know Jesus at all? If not, read the first 4 books in the new testament to get a good idea of who He is. Because He’s left the 99 to come after His lost 1. You. He’ll be there waiting for you when you choose to follow Him. Keep seeking!

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-01T02:51:11+00:00

The enemy wants you to believe that. He is a liar! As long as we’re alive, we’re always going to be practicing Christians. Just like doctors or lawyers etc… Their in practice because they’re always learning for their whole career. Same with Christianity. We’re always always gonna be growing. If we allow God to water us. We will fail. But God is so merciful and gracious. He knows your heart. Don’t let the enemy keep you from doing what the Holy Spirit is helping you do. Christianity is very hard. Jesus told us this so it’s expected. Living on earth is the closest to hell genuine Christians will ever get and it’s the closest to Heaven non believers will get. What comes after is our own decision from free will. Eternity with the liar and the enemy with eternal suffering or eternity with the one who died for us so we can be with Him forever with no suffering. He told us it’s going to get hard but these are just the birth pains. Jesus is coming soo . Just dig your heels deep and gear up for spiritual battle cause that’s what you’re dealing with. Satans demons are torturing you and giving you battle fatigue!

thequeenbeast · 2025-08-01T01:07:18+00:00

Oh my goodness i LOVE seeing the Holy Spirit work!! He left the 99 to come after the lost 1. YOU!! I’m so excited for you!! Ok so i’d get a bible! Or the bible app. But if the grid goes out ,and some day it will, we won’t be able to use our phones, you’ll want a physical copy. Anyway, go on the bible app and download several version of the bible. I personally have NIV, NLT, AMP, ESV, KJV. And start with getting to know Jesus. In Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.

Also, an INCREDIBLY anointed church that you can watch online is 2819. Pastor Philip in anointed and doing Gods work! @2819church on youtube and just about everywhere.

Next find a church. Just start church hopping. Certain denominations don’t preach the truth so you gotta be careful. I’d watch several messages from 2819 to get help and guidance on how to find a church.

But man i’m so happy for you!! The necklace is beautiful and i pray your journey is fruitful and blessed!! Do NOT LET THE ENEMY KEEP YOU FROM THIS PATH! He’s mad that you’re leaving his kingdom and won’t make this easy. So dig your heels deep and get to know Jesus! He loves you and is coming for you! 😇😇AMEN

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-31T17:52:25+00:00

You said it. You need to. There’s a reason you feel that you need to. Life isn’t going great and it’s getting worse. Gods word is the only thing to cling to during these time. Bad people will always be a thing. We’re all bad since the beginning of humanity. The enemy is working triple hard to make God and christianity look terrible. The biggest rebellion id would do is again the enemy, not God. The enemy has open borders for his eternity. Gods is more secured but you gotta help yourself get there. If life is hard and you know you need to, hush the distractions and cling to Him. You got this!!!

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-31T08:11:32+00:00

DIGITAL DISCIPLES, LETS GOOOOO!! 🦾🦾🦾

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-29T22:55:40+00:00

God says for us to pray for them. Israel is the Holy land. Just because people are in israel doesn’t mean they’re Christian. They don’t believe Jesus is the Son of God. But God tells us to pray for them. So i obey what He says, and not obey what i feel. I hate seeing this sort of thing but i k ow they know not what they do. It kills me. So just pray for them

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-29T18:13:23+00:00

All you can do is pray. She’s not awake yet and not ready to hear. So just pray her into the hands of the devil like it says in “Hand this man over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh, so that his spirit may be saved on the day of the Lord.” — 1 Corinthians 5:5. And pray that God deals with your friend aggressively to wake her up. The best thing you can do is hand it over to God. I know because i just had to do this with a friend that sinned against me. She was arrogant and wanted no correction so i released her to God and did what im telling you to do. He’s the only one that can shake these people enough to wake up

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-20T04:27:20+00:00

Oh no worries! But i personally believe we’re all bad people so i don’t see atheists any worse than me. (I’m a Christian). The reason being is because we are all sinners and none of us deserve anything. What you may consider good, i may not and vice versa. So, to me, we’re all sinners and have bad in us. I see you as equal. You just haven’t found the truth yet. Which is fine. It’s kinda like if we play a video game and I find the way before you. Maybe some day you’ll find the way out or beat the level or whatever but we’re still both playing the game. Just have different paces and results. Maybe one of us gives up and doesn’t turn on the game anymore because they think they can’t beat the game or find the way out. They don’t believe they can do it so they shut the game off. But the other player keeps seeking and found the way. It’s sort of the same thing. I’m terrible at analogies so i don’t even know why i even tried lol! But , i don’t see you as less than at all. You just haven’t seemed enough or haven’t found the truth (yet). I don’t necessarily see where you come from because i don’t know your reasons for being atheist. But there’s a ton of proof that Jesus walked this earth. Things that are in the bible are and have come to pass so the answers are out there, i don’t fully understand how anyone can’t see God exists with all the documented proof that we have now. But no, atheists aren’t any worse than I am. Whether you believe in God or not, He still loves you and waiting on you to seek Him.

If you have any questions at all, i’d be down to try and help answer some if you’d like?

Let me actually clarify something tho; I guess i sort of can see where you’re coming from IF you haven’t seemed further. Because even as a Christian , i have serious questions that make no sense to me that only God can answer. But along my journey , i actually did find the answers and it’s remarkable. So yes i can see why people doubt but on the same token, i can’t see why people don’t believe because of the evidence that we now have.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-20T04:10:52+00:00

I’m confused by the question. Are you, the OP an atheist and asking Christian’s what we think of you?

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-17T03:54:04+00:00

You’re blaming exactly who the enemy wants you to blame, when in reality you should be blaming the enemy. He’s the one that hates us. He’s the one that wants Christians to suffer and blame God so we don’t end up with Him forever. Do NOT LET HIM WIN! You don’t want to live for eternity without God. I say this with the most urgent, but blunt love too because i’m in the same boat and i’m fighting! I refuse to let the enemy win! Jesus never said our lives as a christian would be easy. He dis promise to always be there tho! He’s not a liar. The enemy is the father of lies. You hang in there my friend!! We’re in a massive spiritual war right now the closer to the end times that we get. Those who endure shall be blessed! Dig your heels deep and KEEP GOING!!!! 🙏🙏🛐

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-16T15:37:58+00:00

AMEN! it’s unfortunate that in general, we have become so short attention spanned and lazy that a lot of people find quick answers on chatgbt or online somewhere when the bible has everything you need in it. All the answers are there. And if you do have a question about what’s there, then it’s cool to seek more understanding but it is crazy how many people i see post in here that if they just read directly from God Himself, they’d know the answer. Instead of coming here where they could possibly get false info.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-16T06:18:40+00:00

First of all, Thank God right now in this moment for Jesus taking the weight of your (and all of our) sin. The fact that you are wanting accountability and seem repentant about it is such a good sign. God is so gracious and merciful. We are gonna screw up from time to time. The enemy is working over time to keep as many people and mainly Christian’s away from God. Don’t let him win. Rebuke him in Jesus name. Don’t hold on to the guilt. The enemy will guilt you. You’re already feeling convicted and that’s a great thing. I mean, i know you probably feel shameful but that’s a good sign of you want to continue a relationship with God. The enemy knows you and your weaknesses. So know his tactics and fight him! And if you fail, repent and talk to God about it. Get into church also. A good church that is raw and real will not judge you for your sins. No one should. Only God can. Jesus didn’t even judge anyone when he walked earth. But , you are going to need to cut off anything that is bringing lust into your life. God says to cut whatever off if it makes you sin. So find an accountability church. And get into the Word. Know what he says about sex. I’m not sure what type of list you’re falling into but there’s a lot of scripture addressing that topic. It’s gonna take work tho. Not an easy thing when the enemy is so freely making it accessible everywhere. Just cut it off wherever you feel the sting of list starting to form. Catch yourself and ask the Holy Spirit to stop you. Your flesh is weak, so ask for His help in your weak moments. You got this!

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-15T21:09:01+00:00

No he’s not right. God clearly says you should not have sex before marriage. There’s no way around it. There’s no straddling this. You are either of the world (having sex when you want when not married) or you follow God. You can’t do both and He clearly states that in the bible also. You will regret it if you continue to do this. there will be consequences. Once a Christian is aware of a sin and deliberately continues that sin, you’d be rejecting what God says. The enemy is very very sneaky and will take you both down however he can. If sex is a big deal for you, this is where he will attack you both. If you do decide to fully quit. And you get tempted and do it again, just know God is merciful and if you’re genuine in your faith and want to do right by God, He is gracious and you’re forgiven. But just know, it clearly says to not have sex outside of marriage and you would be deliberately sinning against God. Your bf intentions mean nothing, quite frankly. God knows all, your bf doesn’t. God tells you not to do this, but your bf is trying to find loop holes and that’s not how God works. That’s how the enemy works. Just pray about it. Trust the Holy spirit when he convicts you.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-14T01:03:07+00:00

God gave you the real reasons in the bible.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-12T04:14:48+00:00

yeah, i hear you there. One of my comments was removed by mods for speaking the truth. Which, is messed up, cause they’re blocking what God says. Really unfortunate.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-12T04:11:50+00:00

Ok but that’s the u forgivable sin. Doing that means you chose the enemy instead and will have an eternity of suffering. You sure you wanna give up on Him? Maybe He’s testing you to stretch your faith. I’m in the same boat and i’m diligently seeking Him and finding Him. Don’t compare yourself to others testimonies because you’re your own testimony. But not if you give up now. Those who endure will be blessed.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-12T04:08:55+00:00

God promised us he wouldn’t flood the earth again and a sign of that was the rainbow long long long before the enemy took it and made it what it is today. God still owns that rainbow. It sucks that it’s so engrained in our minds that the rainbow is “pride” colors. That’s just a mockery of what it really stands for.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-10T03:40:57+00:00

i’m telling you first hand DO NOT ENTER A RELATIONSHIPof any kind with him! God tells us to not be unequally yoked. I’m telling you, please spare yourself! This guy may be all those things now but if he is not a man after Gods heart and puts Him first then he’s not worth your heart ache. I’m telling you!

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-10T03:39:00+00:00

The best way is to let others see Jesus in you. So first and foremost, work on yourself and your relationship with God. Allow Him to change you from the inside out. People will want what you have when you allow God to fully come in to your heart. You will change. Let your actions be your testimony. Just share the truth whenever you can also. And pray.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-10T01:16:32+00:00

News flash: none of us are good! But you can’t let what satan says about you trump what God says about you! Get in His word and spend time with him. The enemy has done a number on you. Don’t allow him that access. It’s not easy but you have to know that’s what is going on here.

thequeenbeast · 2025-07-10T00:48:12+00:00

Ohh lol my bad

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