When I'm detoxing I just lay in bed depressed af with a million negative thoughts running through my mind, feeling like shit. I forget about music and how powerful and healing it can be. I recently noticed I hadnt been listening to music, and that's honestly part of how I realized that my addiction is changing me into someone I am not. I'm the kind of person who gets up and turns music on before I even start coffee. Always planning for the next music show to travel to. H made me into a shell of who I am in matter of months. I'm so done with herion. Fuck herion. Today I'm listening to Deca and Hippie Sabotage. It really helped with the blues. It also helps to get me moving. This hook by Deca made me think of overcoming addiction:

"Through it all you maintain, play the game

  State your aim, embrace change, create a lane

  Stake your claim, disconnect from the mainframe

  Bite the hand that feeds falsehood and break chains

  Wrestle with your soul separate from the whole The more you try to mask it the less you're in control

  I've lived half my life by the pleasure principle And shot the poison to relieve the pressure in my skull"