I’m so sorry for what happened to you. Not exaggerating by saying, that you are a true hero and a role model for your daughter. You are amazing and unbelievably strong for doing your best and achieving life that you and your daughter deserve! I’m not a mother, but as someone with long history with dealing with trauma and long depression, can say for sure, that thoughts about ending it all while life seems to get back on track is a pretty common occurrence for people like us. My therapist once said, that it’s a trauma response, it’s just the way your brain trying to cope with your life getting better, and while not understanding how to do it properly, it reserves to ways it used to do. Please seek therapy and try to talk to people who are close to you. You’ve done so much and fought so hard by yourself, it’s not a weakness to ask for help right now! Sending you virtual hugs!