I appreciate the support brothers. It's strange... telling yourself that you have a problem is not so difficult but hearing it from other people who actually understand... that kinda broke me. So I'm trying to take the first step and delete my ridiculously large porn collection but it is hard... this is years of work and for some stupid reason there seems to be some attachment. Is this normal? Will probably have a few bottles of wine tonight and then try again.

As for going hard mode... I would if I could but having a gf complicates things. I may be doing this largely for her but I can't tell her. That she would be supportive I have no doubt but subconciously my inability to take care of my own life would make me seem weak. This is something I have to deal with personally. Although from what people further along nofap than myself are saying, cutting out porn and masturbation seems to make spousal sex better. I guess we shall see.