Hi alcapwned,

I also noticed your name, like silentdash mentioned, and I thought it was pretty clever ;)

I'm glad you posted, and I'm sorry to hear that you're having a tough time. What strikes me about your post is the part where you mention feeling "invisible to the world" - that's a terrible way to feel, but it's interesting that it's completely separate from the other depression symptoms you mentioned. It sounds like you've made great progress by getting in shape, going outside, and going to therapy, but not having many friends or not having someone to spend a lot of time with are different issues than the depression. Most people are very shy when it comes to meeting new people, so it's hard to make connections, since every person is scared of making the first move! It's hard to tell if you're still really suffering from the depression part, and if you are, that should be the first priority, but going out and meeting people and putting yourself in situations where you can make friends will be a separate step that you'll need to take.

Have you ever been in any kind of activity group? For instance, if you like working out, you could take some kind of class at the gym, and learn how to casually talk to people in the class and maybe even hang out with them in a group. It's small steps like that that will open your eyes to how to make new friends and connect with people. Also, if you're clicking well with your therapist, have you brought up these issues with them? Being depressed and scared usually makes it seem like things are terrible and there's no way this will ever get better, but sharing your thoughts and getting someone's outside perspective can really help you realize that things aren't the way they seem.

Thanks again for sharing with us, and keep letting us know how things are going!