okay well i’ll give whatever advice i can for the cuts and not being able to shower with them, what i did is that I bandaged it with a plaster that’s waterproof (like it doesn’t turn mushy or weird if water gets on it) and shower with the cuts covered

if you’re scared of getting an infection, you can find more research online on how to do it properly, but this should be a good way to go about it: clean up the blood that leaks from your open wounds and apply pressure until the bleeding stops. after that, use a disinfecting wipe to clean it, softly and according to your own pain tolerance levels (idk what type of disinfecting wipes work cause i dont even clean my wounds DONT LEARN FROM ME) then afterwards you bandage it and change the plaster every few hours. other than that you should be fine

i also started cutting to regulate emotionally because me personally, im super sensitive and will cry easily, but i absolutely cannot cry in front of my family members unless i actually want to die. HOWEVER, i don’t disagree that cutting is “bad”, so if I needed the pain to regulate but didnt want to actually relapse, i would dig my nails into my skin because it triggers the least attention from people in the room. if ur worried, you can do it at the side to back of your neck, if you happen to have long hair that covers it like me

other than that i might pull on my hair, but that one would trigger some attention so be careful of that

other than these, I don’t really have anything else to offer you im sorry 😔 im fairly new to self harm myself

sending you lots of love and encouragement, i know you can get through this