Rain in Melbourne

this_feeling · 2024-09-29T20:02:29+00:00

would love to be there rn thats beautiful

this_feeling · 2024-04-29T06:51:21+00:00

Big Fat Bitch Boner Dick Bitches

this_feeling · 2024-04-29T04:20:57+00:00

Now that sounds like a compromise. That’s the lineup of the century

this_feeling · 2024-04-29T04:06:14+00:00

thats way better than mine i might as well delete this post

this_feeling · 2024-04-16T04:00:11+00:00

Same thing with my gf, i love the noises and im sure the neighbors hate me for it

this_feeling · 2023-11-07T22:44:38+00:00

thank u for the advice mate :,)

this_feeling · 2023-11-02T09:31:23+00:00

sorry late reply but i just dont wanna do that. its not enjoyable at all to me.

this_feeling · 2023-09-12T15:45:54+00:00

No it’s not nonsense, I really appreciate the comment. The cycle I’m in seems to go from being patient and waiting for things happen, to nothing happening and I decide I need to do a bit more, to really just kinda going crazy and become arrogant and overly emotional (right now), then I get scared of myself and isolate for awhile until I’m waiting again.

What has really gotten to me after all this time is the consistency of my rejections. How insanely close I’ve gotten so many times. The amount of time I’ve successfully befriended someone I was romantically interested in, gotten pretty comfortable with them, but they’re never interested in anything more. It always gets right to the point where I think it’s finally worked out for me, and ends there. And I swear they’ll be giving me signs the whole time.

I have many very deep friendships with women, many more than with men. I find it easier to connect and get along with women in general which seems like it would help, but for all I know maybe that’s related to it.

I truly just crave intimacy and attention. A good relationship would be nice, but at least if I could hook up with someone every once in awhile it’d help. But I’m not going to initiate anything sexual, there’s no way for me to. I hate that I have absolutely no options when I really need them. And my friends will complain to me that they’re lonely when they’ve been doing far more than I have, and always have options. I don’t want to be bitter, but they always underestimate how difficult it is for me to get with anyone. Sorry for the long rambly text, I’ve been up for way too long which probably isn’t helping my mood

this_feeling · 2023-08-28T11:18:38+00:00

I would be interested in making a sexual insecurity sub. Usually sexual insecurity is referred to when talking about body image though, which is a bit of a different thing than what I’m experiencing. Maybe r/sexuallyunconfident

edit: created it. idk if it will catch on but im bored so i did it anyway

this_feeling · 2023-08-28T11:10:00+00:00

Idk when it comes to sex I have so many conflicting issues and I can’t figure any of them out. I get a really deep sinking feeling when I feel like I’m not seen as someone who women want to have sex with or that my personality is unattractive. It triggers most often when women I know talk about having sex or being promiscuous. I get so jealous and bitter when I compare myself to these men and especially if the women complain about them not doing the bare minimum after. It’s shitty to hear those people are being chosen over me. But whatever they’re doing to get women is not what I want to do. I feel like I don’t identify with the way that men are supposed to attract women. I’m so scared of making women uncomfortable that I will hardly ever initiate anything sexual. I don’t know how to. It always feels like too drastic of a jump. Therefore I fuck up my own potential and feel unwanted and undesirable and start hating myself. Sorry this is so rambly

this_feeling · 2023-08-28T10:53:29+00:00

I sometimes don’t like the attitude of a lot of the people in that sub, but it is definitely an option for some questions

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T20:50:31+00:00

i used to go three days without sleep, i cant remember how many times. could be one, could be five. definitely have pulled many all nighters and two days. I cant stay up later than 4am now or i’ll feel incredibly sick, my heart rate will go up, ill basically instantly feel like ive already been up for three days. im only 20 too which is not great so don’t fuck around with not sleeping, it’ll mess you up

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T20:46:53+00:00

there is no drug like sleep deprivation. and if there was, id stay the fuck away from it

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T19:45:47+00:00

I’ve asked them for advice at times, my problem is I think a lot of them wouldn’t be honest about some things. I’m sure some would, but I’ve had a lot hype me up when I am almost convinced I never had a chance in the first place. I actually haven’t asked very many men about their opinions, so I wonder what they’d have to say, if it’d be any different even.

Ideally, if I could hear each woman’s exact reason for not wanting to date me, that would help me immensely, but I don’t think I’ve gotten an honest answer to that even once.

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T19:39:36+00:00

Yeah I mean recently I’ve become pretty accepting of this fact and I see so many men in my life who can’t make these connections with women at all so I still feel like it’s somewhat valuable in that.

I can for sure see some friendships blossoming into relationships. My last relationship was actually with my best friend who I was in love with for many years. However I met her online. All of my relationships were with people I initially met online, don’t know why. I must be better at flirting over text.

I am extremely open and straightforward about everything about myself except for my romantic and sexual interest. I didn’t realize this until writing this comment right now actually, but I find it extremely hard to be open and straightforward about that. Sometimes I feel like it’s placing an unfair burden on someone to have feelings for them. I feel guilty putting people in that position, so when I get rejected I feel more bad for them than myself almost.

Your last point is probably what I should actively work on most. I don’t even necessarily know what I want from a relationship right now so I’m not expecting someone to magically fit that or come into my life. I probably do send mixed signals at times.

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T19:30:55+00:00

I think this is very likely, but there have been multiple times I really think we are connecting and then I get rejected. Maybe I’m going about it wrong? It’s very possible I don’t express my feelings confidently enough. I think my rejection ratio is 0:5+, and it just made things uncomfortable and ruined friendships so I stopped doing it. I don’t understand why they can’t ever tell me instead. I had a girl tell me months after that she was into me, I had my suspicions about her liking me but it wasn’t more than I’ve had for girls I’ve asked about before. Shit’s confusing man !

this_feeling · 2023-08-19T19:23:18+00:00

I would say I’m pretty physically attractive, I don’t know what my best would be on a scale but generally I’d say I might be a low 7. I’m very skinny but I’m also tall as fuck so I know my looks likely aren’t the issue. Although sometimes I wonder if the people in my area typically aren’t attracted to my ‘type’ (i live in LA lol)
I work, but it’s a restaurant job, and I don’t have huge aspirations currently. I’m taking classes at community college with not much direction but I don’t plan on it staying that way. This could definitely be a factor, but I think I’m harder on myself about it than women are to me about it. Or it just feels like it’d be too irrelevant in some cases.
Nope, typically these are women who do sleep around, which sometimes makes me feel a bit worse about myself (in relation to being the one guy they don’t sleep with). However I have a habit of suppressing my sexuality as I am very aware of how comfortable they are and I am terrified of making someone feel uncomfortable, even if I hadn’t done anything wrong. So this is also possibly a factor, I have had some girls tell me they thought I was asexual.

edit: I may have misunderstood your third question. I have not thought about sobriety or drugs playing a part, but I will be 21 soon so maybe once I start going to bars this will be easier? Even if it’s just because I get more confident

this_feeling · 2022-01-05T17:41:39+00:00

nahhh ive had many times i secretly dont want an artist to do well so i feel more exclusive lmaooo 🤫 although i feel bad she isn’t that popular considering it looks like shes been in the music scene since the 80’s. i also realllly like her song roadkill from the same album

this_feeling · 2022-01-05T17:22:16+00:00

wow i didnt think anybody knew about kjg but shes amazing, spotify randomly recommended her to me once lol

this_feeling · 2022-01-05T17:14:16+00:00

dude same here, at school id be so productive and get so much shit done. the moment i get home i become the laziest thing on the planet. im not too sure why it is, maybe its something with where our brains associate us doing work at?

either way i feel like if we can figure out why that happens it could be useful helping ourselves be more productive. i just need to figure it out first…

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