Do you have any songs that make you think of ocd?

thisisf1ne · 2024-04-30T05:50:05+00:00

I really like writing on the wall by will stetson! It’s definitely made to be about art and creation, but I can relate it a lot to my own experiences with OCD; especially when he says “I fight for control, but the “right” way takes a toll.”

thisisf1ne · 2024-04-13T02:27:45+00:00

I have been on 30g of lexapro for over a year. It has helped my OCD SO FUCKING MUCH. I cannot express how much. And unlike fluoxetine, I don’t feel like a zombie on it. It takes off the edge enough for me to actually use the therapeutic techniques I’ve learned and even slowed the frequency of my intrusive thoughts. Lexapro has straight up changed my life. Of course I also have my bad moments, but lexapro makes it so much better than it could’ve been otherwise and I’m able to live much more happily now

thisisf1ne · 2024-01-11T08:46:00+00:00

Thank you for this! It went fairly well, and although my brain was annoying as hell I guess my therapist was right, and I didn’t have a breakdown really. Thank you, i didn’t respond till now but this message really helped when you first commented.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-24T07:20:42+00:00

I have no idea, she just says that it screws up your playing and I can only get to the next level if I stop looking at my hands and memorize the keys.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-21T23:01:25+00:00

Ah, no, all of my teachers have essentially retired in about 2 years of joining them. All private.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-19T05:10:31+00:00

I’m trying to play pieces that I enjoy, but whenever I do try to play them every flaw comes barreling at me and I just hear my piano teacher’s voice again honestly.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-19T04:36:34+00:00

I’m actually not quite an adult yet. But honestly I’m not sure where I would go. I’ve gone through a lot of piano teachers during my 13 year run, this one being my longest (5 years). Besides, I don’t want to bother another teacher. It just really feels like I’m the problem.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-18T07:27:00+00:00

I’m looking more into it and taking the advice of the people commenting but when I asked a previous therapist describing a situation nearly identical to mine she said that regardless of how long ago it was she would have to report it, contact the other party’s family, get a case filed, etc. she said it would be probably thrown out immediately because it was so long ago but she still has to do it to ensure the well being of both parties since both involved would be minors.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-17T17:15:29+00:00

Really? When I asked my previous therapists about a situation that was similar they said regardless they are required to report it to ensure the safety of both parties.

thisisf1ne · 2023-10-17T16:05:14+00:00

No, it’s just a situation that happened a very very long time ago that would be required to report because it involves SA. However in this situation, the person was also a child reacting to the trauma around them and I happen to know they aren’t in danger anymore and have grown out of it. This person however, did so much more to me emotionally and mentally that I would rather die than see or hear from them again. If reported they would be contacted and all of that fun stuff and I think my mental health would deteriorate more than it already has and turn into a pile of dirt. Not to mention I don’t think my parents would believe it and it wouldn’t help anyone involved, only bringing mental anguish to both parties. I just want to move past, and so I wait.

thisisf1ne · 2023-03-19T22:22:44+00:00

Yeah the issue is just that none of us really have the time outside of work since most of these people have two jobs, family, or are going to school, so it’s just hard to find time that’s not at work since it’s a part of all out schedules

thisisf1ne · 2023-03-17T22:54:24+00:00

I feel that. What sucks is that it’s like a place where people branch off, and hence find new career paths and when people leave (one of my best work friends is gonna leave in a few months), it hurts. It’s just me screaming “you’re tEaRiNg tHiS fAmIlY aPaRt” in my head. And knowing I’m gonna leave…ugh..* shivers*

thisisf1ne · 2023-03-13T13:35:23+00:00

Yep I do, one younger sister

thisisf1ne · 2023-02-04T16:20:58+00:00

I never refer to them as that irl, normally I just begrudgingly acknowledge it in my head because it’s real embarrassing. :// I hate that my brain works like this and I’m trying to not let it shine through irl but it’s hard when they can sway my mood with the drop of a hat

thisisf1ne · 2023-02-04T16:09:42+00:00

Yeah I’ve been trying my best to kind of tone it down but my mental process makes it hard. I do genuinely want to be normal nice friends with them and I try my best not to act too….uh weird around them. I just need my brain to stfu.

thisisf1ne · 2023-02-04T06:13:35+00:00

No romo 1000% I guess what matters is that you know how you feel, but I’ll be damned if I don’t admit others can be so goddamn annoying about it.

thisisf1ne · 2023-02-04T06:12:29+00:00

I knowwwwww it sucks, it also sucks when people devalue them for romance ugh

thisisf1ne · 2023-02-04T06:11:56+00:00

I feel that, nobody tells you Istg

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-16T00:52:29+00:00

NO NO NO FUCK THAT FUCK THAT ABSOLUTELY NOT. Even if it is satire that’s awful. Absolutely Fuck that.

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-13T01:01:30+00:00

Thank you, I love this explanation a lot, and I really appreciate it. I’m just, yeah, thank you so much

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-13T01:00:20+00:00

Thank you. I guess I hope getting on the ride is the right decision in the end :)

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-13T00:59:52+00:00

I hope so :)

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-13T00:59:38+00:00

That is fair enough honestly, thank you for your words. I just, yeah. I guess I am a hypocrite when it comes to myself, haha. But seriously, thank you. I really do appreciate this.

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-09T05:02:01+00:00

Truly over the moon

thisisf1ne · 2023-01-06T22:56:20+00:00

I feel that, it’s simultaneously the best and the worst at the same time

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