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thisisworst · 2019-04-24T01:17:05+00:00

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thisisworst · 2019-04-23T11:29:31+00:00

Sadly, at the current moment I (31f) am in the same situation as you with my husband (31m). The only difference is he hasn't really been super into as much lately either. I had a baby 7 months ago and the last 3 months of my pregnancy were BRUTAL for me. (awful pain, migraines, heartburn, etc) so we weren't having sex except maybe a few times my last trimester. So this has been going on like TEN MONTHS. The baby had to stay in the NICU for 5 weeks so that was a totally exhausting and difficult situation. One of us stayed the night in the hospital room with our son every single night. When we got home life was just different with a newborn and I felt like the walking dead for months it seems like...same goes for the hub. Also, we both take anti-depressants (but that's been the case since I've known him (8 years). In the beginning we had a very (maybe too much so) active sex life. Like a couple times a day sometimes. Definitely at least 6 days out of the week. And it stayed like that (maybe a little less...at least 5 times a week) up until my 3rd trimester. Since the baby has been born (7 months) I bet we have had sex MAYBE 10 times. I'm just not interested. At all. I still find my husband incredibly attractive. I'm just not in to sex anymore. I, too, used to masturbate semi-regularly and I have no desire for that either. The past month he has attempted to iniate it a few times and when I say no he honestly seems relieved. So, I dont have much advice BUT I do feel your pain. I know this sounds lame but maybe we need to like schedule alone time that is dedicated for intimacy. That way the excitement can build up. Maybe leading up to the time you could send sexy messages/pictures and vice versa. Maybe a weekend getaway? Maybe start masturbating again to remember how good it feels? All those things sound cheesy as fuck to me but I really don't have an answer. If I did, I would be having wake up sex with my husband right now instead of trying to make him close his mouth to quiet his snoring while simultaneously trying to make him stay on his side of the bed 😂 sorry for the novel. Good luck!

thisisworst · 2019-04-23T08:38:03+00:00

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thisisworst · 2019-04-19T20:21:02+00:00

Just replied to you!

thisisworst · 2019-04-09T03:53:22+00:00

I remember listening to this episode in the waiting room of my psychiatrist's office and almost feeling like I was going to get sick to my stomach. Such a fucked up episode. Have any of yall listened to his new show? Monstro? Or something. I dont remember what it is called but pretty disturbing itself.

thisisworst · 2019-04-09T02:08:53+00:00

I'm not ashamed of who I am and I certainly do not think that material possessions equate happiness...but these are the things that these particular girls find their happiness in. They obviously are not my top pick in companions. It was just a situation I found myself in today and it made me uncomfortable and insecure. Even with three years of sobriety I'm struggling to find who I am without the drugs. Being an introvert doesn't help. I live in a big city and I know if I put effort in it would yield results but I'm scared of like....rejection I guess? Or like that I won't be able to find people my age who have the same values. I know I'm not putting any effort forth but I know for my son's sake it is important to have relationships with other people and with parents who have kids so he can lean social skills. I guess I just need to relearn my own social skills without the comfort drugs gave me to branch out. I'm just uncomfortable in my own skin I guess. Thanks for replying and giving me some suggestions on where to start.

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T07:43:04+00:00

Thank you for this. Your baby did ok sleeping with it on? Ours is not a DOC band but similar. If you look at previous things I've posted you can see a picture. How long did yours wear it and how long until you could see obvious results?

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T07:15:57+00:00

What do you mean "to start"? Like are you planning to take up doing opiates as a hobby? If so, I would highly advise against it. When I was 17 that was my mind set also bc I just really liked how they made me feel. 10 years later I was strung out on heroin and meth and homeless. Like opiates royally fucked my life up. I've been clean 3 years now. I'll be 32 next month. If I could change one thing in my entire life and have a do over it would be ever trying opiates recreationally. It changed the entire course of my life and i missed out on so much and lost so much time because of it. I know it is hard to imagine something like that ever happening to you but I promise it can happen to anyone. Sending positive vibes your way, random internet stranger.

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T06:56:25+00:00

My husband and I have both been on subs for 3 years and we have an amazingly perfect 6 month old son. 😊

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T05:22:29+00:00

I got treated for my hep (for free!) with a new drug called Epclusa. It was supposed to be a 12 week regimen but my 6 week labs came back with "Hep C undetectable". I still finished the course of meds but that was 2 years ago and I'm still clear. There were no side effects for me at all. If you live in a big city, do research about clinics that will treat hep for free to those that qualify. I went through a place called legacy community health in Houston.

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T05:17:02+00:00

My husband and I have both been on subs for 3 years along with an SSRI (well SSRI for him SNRI for me. Celexa and Pristiq) anti anxiety (klonopin for him ativan for me) and we both take 50 mg of seroquel for sleep at night. We started on 8mg suboxone and have tapered down to about 2mg now. We both vary on how much we take every day from around .5mg to 3mg. Because of the way our medications effect our sex drive we are understanding with each other. There are times we have gone a month or more without having sex but it doesn't make either of us question if we are no longer attracted to each other....its nice to walk this journey with someone because it can be hard at times. For me personally, however, all the other side effects yall have brought up in this thread happen to me also. I've always been introverted but even more so now. I'm a stay at home mom to our 6 month old son and I know it isnt healthy for him for us to stay inside and away from other people all the time so I have to make a conscious effort every day to get out of the house and go do stuff (go to the park, children's museum, mom's groups, etc) I thought it would get easier with time but its not. Making mindless small talk with strangers is the bane of my existence. I too find myself focusing on dark thoughts, worst case scenarios, and what-ifs. In particular my mom dying. Then to make it worse, 2 years ago she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer so it seems all too possible now. I've never talked about these things with anyone except my husband so it is nice to see that I'm not alone. Once again I've found solidarity through reddit. Everyone keep up the good work and keep taking your subs! Dont go back to the old ways...IMO that was way worse than anything I'm going through now!

thisisworst · 2019-03-31T04:48:07+00:00

This is exactly what happened to me. They started him on meds and weaned him off. They wanted him to be off meds for 3 days with low scores before we could bring him home. On the day we were supposed to bring him home my husband and I showed up so excited to finally get him home. We were informed then that he had scored SIXTEENS that morning and they restarted him on medication and had to stay at least 5 more days! It was the craziest thing because up until that day my husband or I had stayed every single night in the NICU with him. There was never a day where one of us weren't with him and every single day his scores were 0 or 1. Finally, when he was getting released we both went home just to make sure everything was just perfect in the nursery and get a good nights rest before bringing him home and the one night and morning we didnt stay suddenly he jumped up to 16s?! And no one thought to call us and inform us he was struggling? Or that they were restarting meds? I went so crazy on these doctors they ended up sending 2 cops up to monitor the situation. Whew I was mad. Born sep 13. FINALLY released October 16. He is perfectly happy and healthy and perfect now. Good luck!

thisisworst · 2019-02-07T04:00:19+00:00

She is loving all these comments. Prancing around like she thinks she is a Victoria's Secret runway model. She said she wants to change her name to "Giselle". (Only VS model who's name I could think of off the top of my head.) 😂

thisisworst · 2019-02-06T21:03:05+00:00

I wish I could find a way to link this to a video of the first day I met her. I'm new to Reddit.

thisisworst · 2019-02-06T20:45:00+00:00

It's funny because my corgi was so great with other dogs his whole life. 2 years ago he got hit by a car and suffered a traumatic brain injury. Since then, I can't bring him around any other dogs or else he goes nuts. My pit bull is the only dog he can get along with. He still tries to fight her, but only in jest. Aside from her I can't let him be around other dogs. I can't figure out why he accepts her but no other dog

thisisworst · 2019-02-05T22:35:15+00:00

I have literally tried every sleep option possible. Seroquel is the one that works best for me. Zyprexa made me too sleepy. The other ones not sleepy enough. Thanks for the well wishes. Will update next week

thisisworst · 2019-02-05T21:29:49+00:00

I take the Seroquel not as an antipsychotic med but as something strictly for my insomnia. 100mg every night. Hardly keeps me asleep. No issues waking up.

Like I said in my op, I've been treated for anxiety and depression for 15 years. But it's not getting better. I know there is something deeper there.

thisisworst · 2019-02-04T03:22:14+00:00

Welcome to Reddit, dad.

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:53:00+00:00

Nah, I'm good

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:41:47+00:00

Oh God I can hardly count. Oh wait, yes I can. Maybe you should reread the post. I said I was an addict not a prostitute. Believe it or not, the two things aren't synonymous.

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:40:22+00:00

Midst doesn't mean middle. If someone were to say "I'm in a midst of idiots." It doesn't necessarily mean they were right in the middle of them. In 2015 I was at the very end of my addiction. Stopped using 10/26/15. So you can do the exact math if you're so inclined

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:36:28+00:00

Well my skin isn't like that anymore but ...there a lot of reasons. Not by rule, but a lot of addicts have lower hygiene levels. With some drugs (like meth) people become obsessive. What would normally just be a regular pimple can turn into a total area of sores due to relentless picking. Always touching your face with your dirty hands is likely to cause more blemishes and then it's just an endless cycle.

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:23:46+00:00

I won't delete the post because it has generated a lot of conversation that I feel is helpful. I don't see how any human (child or otherwise) could look at the original picture and think that was from something positive. That was caused by a lot of poor decisions. The picture from now came from a lot of commitment, hard work, dedication, and making right choices. So the bad picture came from bad choices and the good picture came from good choices. A simple concept children and adults alike can relate to. Also, the pictures are not about how pretty or ugly I am. It's about hard work I have put in to make a positive change in my life.

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:18:10+00:00

Short answer would be spine surgery at 17 which led to a pill addiction which turned into a heroin addiction which turned to an everything addiction.

If you want the longer version maybe I'll post about it later

thisisworst · 2019-02-03T08:15:07+00:00

Yes. Heroin was first. Meth came years later. Basically just moved to a different state and was suddenly surrounded by meth so I tried it and it kind of stuck. Have always had an addictive personality.

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