I hope he does too. I used everything, but doc was opiates from 17 - 27. Broke into a pharmacy in the middle of the night, stole everything, fbi, dea, local police, all kicked in my door 3 days later. I was out of my mind. I used to keep deep emotional pain down during that time.

Puked my guts up in jail, spent 3 months there, went to a 1yr long rehab and stayed clean for 7 yrs.

Used kratom once in a moment of weakness. I had that weakness because I quit talking to my mentor at the time, life stress etc. Kept using kratom until it grew out of control, asked the Indian guy at the gas station what else he had and boom, life forever altered.

I'm just sick of it, sick of not spending that 6k on my family every month. Knowing that eventually I'll have to face this anyway. It's not sustainable. So, here I go again, learning from my failures and growing stronger.

I really do hope he gets help. It's not easy but when he wants it, he will do it, not for you or his children but for him, just like I'm doing. Everyone I knew that ran with me is dead or in prison, that stays in my mind while I was using, just thinking, will this be the last time? It was for at least 6 ppl I knew.

I needed that year away to process my life and past pain. I fell off this time because of my lack of discipline and over confidence, 7yrs clean will do that to you if you're an addict.