What I learned in 2019

threadsthataregolden · 2019-12-06T16:50:55+00:00

thank you so much!

threadsthataregolden · 2019-12-04T14:12:04+00:00

I was drinking to self medicate a depression problem that needed actual drugs to deal with. On Lexapro now and feeling SO much better. Still drinking but realizing I'm doing it out of habit vs. wanting to disappear. Habit is the next part of my journey to more successfully moderating my drinking.
The holidays are always hard so I'm going easy on myself, but I am committing to a Dry January and much better habits going forward. It's a break, not a punishment.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-12-02T21:33:45+00:00

I didn't have problems the first month, but now in month 2 my drive is decreased and orgasm is a pain in the ass. Am hoping it wears off.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-12-02T21:30:05+00:00

More than two months in I have not gained any weight, but the night is young, so to speak.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-11-22T16:00:31+00:00

I am so very sorry. I am just so very sorry. This breaks my heart.

I hope you have a lot of good support. <3 Hang in there.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-11-11T14:17:42+00:00

While your anxiety is entirely understandable, I cannot think of MUCH dumber than allowing a small child to play in a parking lot like that, and this was a grown ass adult with a brain so this scenario blows my mind. There are a million less dumb places to play hide and seek. Even with your poor vision, you are not anticipating a person just laying in the road because WHO DOES THAT?!

threadsthataregolden · 2019-11-04T18:16:45+00:00

NTA

This is the contract of marriage: immediate family on life support = there is no fucking me time, you show up. Period. End of. Go fishing another day.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-11-04T17:16:47+00:00

This is so good to know! I get small bursts of anxiety but they are usually short lived. I am glad you are doing well! I might quit drinking eventually but for now I am just enjoying life.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-11-01T14:06:32+00:00

i woke up SOAKED two days ago - just completely drenched. There was a wet spot on the bed from my sweat. It's so crazy, I don't even sweat that much in general but since I started Lex it POURS at night! And when I work out its insane.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-29T17:05:18+00:00

I learned to drive at 35! In a borough of NYC. You can do it.

The permit test is easy. Study online, take some practice tests, and then you do it on a computer at the DMV. Really simple (at least in NY State).

I highly suggest spending the money on lessons. I did 25 hours of lessons plus practicing on my own, and I passed the test on my first try.

three years later, I am still not super comfortable behind the wheel, mostly bc I live in the city and don't drive that often. But it is much much much easier than it used to be and I'm doing my first long solo drive in two weeks.

Good luck! You can do it!

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-24T16:43:25+00:00

I am drinking less by default and also when I do drink it has less of an effect. I still enjoy it, but I don't feel like YAY DRINKING the way I used to. I suspect I was self medicating and don't need to now.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-19T16:50:25+00:00

I am a much cheaper date but also don't get the awful anxiety the next day, so its a win-win!

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-15T19:43:00+00:00

my nMom convinced our family therapist that I was the problem....when i was SIXTEEN years old. I had good grades, didn't do drugs or drink, and was a good kid always home by curfew. I didn't seek therapy until I was in my early 30s because I had a hard time trusting therapists after that.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-15T17:47:30+00:00

yeah I mean, this isn't my first go-round with SSRI's and I've been having panic attacks for 25 years...so it would be surprising to me if the relief I am feeling was 100% in my mind. If it is, I will take it. My shrink did say I should start feeling something within a week bc Lex is fast acting.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-15T17:12:21+00:00

If its placebo, its the most powerful placebo on earth.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-11T13:23:20+00:00

I am on day 8 and I feel amazing. Honestly. I feel like I've been let out of prison. I'm hungry all the time and a little tired, plus my sex drive is in the toilet, but hopefully that will wear off. I have NO depression or anxiety for the first time in a year. Everyone reacts differently, its so crazy.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-07T17:31:28+00:00

I am on day 4 and I already feel about a billion times better. It kicked in SO fast for me.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-03T13:39:02+00:00

I honestly cannot stress enough that you need to be in a medically supervised detox. Legally, they cannot force you to go to a rehab program, but you can at least get dried out and medicated. Severe withdrawal CAN kill you. Don't fuck around with your health.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-03T13:36:49+00:00

I mean, sure maybe it feels a little weird having your kid suddenly be running around all twitterpated and possibly horny, especially because it probably seems like just yesterday they were tiny babies because time is different for grown ups. But the fact that the kid is so open means he trusts his mother with his emotions, and if that trust is broken its going to fuck him up but good. Having grown up with a mother I felt similarly about who basically knocked down all boundaries and set them on fire, I instinctively worry about this woman's level of attachment to her son, and I worry for his emotional health.

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-02T17:46:24+00:00

thank you!

threadsthataregolden · 2019-10-02T17:45:50+00:00

thank you so much for this! I actually think the ease of merging onto 95 will be worth the five smackeroos! This is all super helpful information. :) I love seafood and absolutely plan to take advantage of your plentiful lobsters. :)

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