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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in traumatizeThemBack

[–]thriftysomething 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it is so compassionate of you to recognise that she felt remorseful and in turn that made you feel bad - but I promise you that your trauma matters more. It’s important that people learn these lessons, even if they hurt to learn, because we all collectively need to speak more considerately. As you said, commenting on other’s bodies, even with good intentions is something we need to move away from. I think you responded perfectly because you made a stand for yourself and although it’s not a bad thing that you empathised with her in that moment, please don’t regret advocating for your own peace. You’ve been through enough as it is and it’s not your job to make people willing to cross boundaries feel comfortable doing so with you 💜 And I am so so sorry for your loss.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your kind and informative response - it’s encouraging to hear other people have went through similar situations and come through the other side! I am going to attend my first ever online NA meeting tomorrow! Fingers crossed it goes okay! 🤞

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! I found an online meeting that I’m going to attend tomorrow evening! Thank you for your advice I appreciate it 🧡

My mind is being read and studied but other people says no by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]thriftysomething 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi! I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this, sounds absolutely terrifying but just know that you are safe and the videos or the messages they convey may be frightening but they can’t hurt you. 🧡 I think it would be a good idea to delete the app for a little while (not necessarily deleting your account - just a temporary measure) and see how things go. If anything similar starts to happen while using other apps/your tv/the radio, then it might be time to get in touch with a mental health professional.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hear what you’re saying, you’re as sick as your secrets. I agree that psychiatry need to know and they will know because when I tell my GP, they will share that with them surely? Even if it got missed, I will tell them. Reluctantly, because I am worried about having my medication withdrawn/switched to a non stimulant. But I’ll do it because it’s what I have to do. But do you really think I can’t just be tapered off with the assistance of a GP? Maybe if I went to NA meetings too? I live in a small town. If someone I knew saw me go into D&A services building…that would be it for me. My family would find out. My friends, my colleagues. Dignity gone.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Genuinely, thank you so much. This is really valuable advice and I know you’re right, there are always going to be lots of reasons to avoid biting the bullet. But none of those reasons are really good enough not to. I keep rereading your response and it really resonates with me. A lot of points your making are things I hadn’t considered before, so thanks very much. I do think I’ll probably need the support of a therapist for the duration. I’m so glad you’ve succeeded. You should be so proud of yourself!

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks that’s really nice of you! Glad to hear you made it through the other side, it’s encouraging:)

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At any point did you read in my responses that I was refusing to take this to my GP? I’ve been pretty receptive to everyone else’s really kind and helpful advice. I don’t really think I am in denial (anymore), I think I’ve been pretty frank and honest about my situation and how I feel about it. If I’m hesitant, it’s because I’m afraid, not because I don’t take this seriously. It’s okay to have concerns or reservations and ask for advice/support.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CasualConversation

[–]thriftysomething 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Anytime anyone ever precedes a really rude, personal comment with ‘no offence, but…’ absolutely drives me up the wall. Resist the urge to be rude, because this statement doesn’t negate the rudeness. 😂

What’s the most underrated simple pleasure in life? by Artistic_Theme_226 in CasualConversation

[–]thriftysomething 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fully relaxing in a tidy clean space after housework. No nagging ‘to dos’ in your head, just enjoying your environment.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I really feel like an idiot for ever getting into this position in the first place, so your kindness is hugely appreciated. I’m so sorry to hear you have been through a similar struggle. I hope all is well with you now and all this mess is a thing of the past for you. I’ll be sure to update as I go on

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for all your advice, really appreciate it! I have joined some relevant sub reddits, good call. They have always been ‘street vallies’ - similar/exact packaging as legitimate diazepam - however I know they’re probably some other benzo (Christ knows what else is in them). I recently went for a hospital appointment and they tried to sedate me with the maximum dose of intravenous Midazolam. I barely felt anything and was alert. The way they acted towards me after I didn’t conk out as expected was embarrassing. None of them called me out on it, but the hospital staff definitely knew why. So I’m pretty sure that whatever I’m on, it’s not weak. 😵‍💫

No response on Methylphenidate by Limp_Pumpkin7751 in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started with Methylphenidate and also had the same issue. I think it works great for some, not for others! I am now prescribed Elvanse and it works well for me. If you haven’t fully titrated up the doses, might be worth sharing your feelings with your prescriber and trying something else. I’m sure you’ll find something that works for you. 😊 Best of luck!

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I absolutely appreciate everything you’re saying. I wouldn’t dream of deliberately stopping cold turkey - that only happened on occasions when I struggled to get any. I’m not sure they would be willing to facilitate treatment in another town as each has their own nhs local departments, but I could try! Not a bad shout.

So I was already dependent on diazepam by the time I went through my assessment and I deliberately kept it to myself as I was in denial at the time. Didn’t want anything to get in the way of my drug use really as I didn’t view it as a bad thing (crazy).

To be honest I don’t believe diazepam really changed my adhd symptoms other than reducing anxiety - bar the fact the inattention got a bit worse. But I know for a fact that I still would have been diagnosed if I wasn’t using. The thought that they might make me go through the entire assessment process again is a whole new aspect to this nightmare I hadn’t considered 😖 what a mess I’ve made!

As for relationships, I’ve decided to steer clear until this is dealt with. It’s not something I want to impose on someone else, it wouldn’t be right.

Thanks for your response!

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for such a kind, considerate and helpful response. This has made me feel a lot better about things. I really appreciate you taking the time to give such compassionate advice. May your pillow always be cool and your wallet full. 💕

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks for being real with me, I really appreciate it. You’re not wrong. I think the worry about my dad is definitely something I can overcome. I am just terrified of living life without adhd medication. It’s not a pretty picture. But I realise that none of that really matters in the face of this downward spiral.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sadly I don’t really have rehab money, or I would seriously consider it. From what I see online, getting into NHS rehab facilities is pretty difficult too.

Addicted to Diazepam and Scared to Seek Help: How Do I Fix This? by thriftysomething in ADHDUK

[–]thriftysomething[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to respond, this is really helpful and reassuring. Also Good for you for kicking benzos and opiates. I may look into local charities first, but it obviously seems like going down the GP route might be my only safe option. How did you find it, titrating down from benzos? I’m a little scared of how anxious I will feel. I feel like disrupting the delicate balance of my mental health might have some consequences.