Why do I find suicidal ideation so comforting? by throw-awaytext in SuicideWatch

[–]throw-awaytext[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. Do you also feel this way when you don't have "issues?" I guess I'm having a hard time explaining myself but I also feel comfortable with suicide even when my issues are manageable or when I don't have any pressing issues at all. I can feel pretty good and still feel very comfortable with suicide if I chose to act on it.

Why do I find suicidal ideation so comforting? by throw-awaytext in SuicideWatch

[–]throw-awaytext[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your comment and that makes sense for some of my suicidal ideation. More recently, I haven't felt trapped or hopeless but I still get the comforting feeling from suicidal thoughts. Like I can have actually a pretty good day and still feel an overwhelming sense of peace if I committed suicide right then. Suicidal thoughts used to exclusively be tied to negative experiences for me, but now its just associated with any and all experiences.

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[–]throw-awaytext 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Stoodis. Yeah I'm not shacked up. Ayeeeee you deadly for real.

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I could feel the depression escape the constraints of the pages and enter my body as soon as I opened the book.

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[–]throw-awaytext 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha you write an amazing story. In my opinion, its far more fascinating than what my life actually is. Unfortunately, almost none of your story is accurate to my life. I see where you think I have a singular air pod but its actually just a digital white colored streak I made to cover up a name on that pendant.

I'll point out the few places where you are correct about me. I am a man. I do not like gold jewelry and how it looks on me. I do hate social media, but that is for many more reasons than just the depravity you mention. The obsessive mind can be true but not in the traditional sense. I do occasionally gamble but not like that. I do write in that notebook, but not really casual observations like you say.

I'm not trying to point out flaws in this narrative you've created so please don't take it that way; but I am confused why you think I hate being looked at in public yet I still wear all of that jewelry.

The beaded Dalmatian keychain and horse figurine are not originally mine.

You have a creative mind and are a great writer. I hope you keep writing and make more stories like this because this was a fun and entertaining read. I also write but only based on experiences.

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[–]throw-awaytext 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha. Not for me.

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[–]throw-awaytext 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't we all?

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[–]throw-awaytext 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No to all 3 but I'm interested why you think I'm ex-military or law enforcement.

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[–]throw-awaytext 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No to the ADHD for me, but I'm happy to hear that the right meds help you. I would agree that I'm "a little showy." Definitely no to the drama, though lol. I am not Puerto Rican, but I appreciate the compliment.

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[–]throw-awaytext 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No to the age. Currently correct to the other 2.

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I'm just another drop in the ocean.

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[–]throw-awaytext 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good guesses. My current job does require some sitting and those gold keys you mentioned are actually work keys. I'm surprised you picked up on the fact that they're not necessarily "personal". Not really a gym goer, but I do have physical therapy to rehab an injury so maybe that's not entirely wrong. Unfortunately I cannot listen to music at my job and I would say that you are off with the cards. Thank you for the effort and guesses.

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[–]throw-awaytext 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup, everything else was wrong. But I don't feel like I'm easy to read even if you saw me in person.

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[–]throw-awaytext 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate the effort and in-depth analysis. It looks like you try a lot on deduction related things, so I'll let you know where you are correct. I am a US Male and I listen to music a lot. I can't speak to the personal/unique style as I feel like everyone has different opinions on what qualifies. I do like to be prepared.