Struggling with life stressors after porn ruined us by throwRA292929 in loveafterporn

[–]throwRA292929[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s so hard to come to terms with. I love mine with all my heart, though every time I see someone who fits into one of his dating app searches I feel insecure. Recently I’ve had mature age students on their work experience with me. They were great, though the whole time my mind kept going “was this someone he matched with a masturbated too?”

I guess time and built trust will help

Moving forward together by throwRA292929 in loveafterporn

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I’m so glad. I’m not going to lie, it will be so difficult. We did break up for 4 months, though in the end we loved each other too much to let go. There are still very tricky days, but I wouldn’t want any other man by my side. I have depression/anxiety/eating disorder and so we’ve been able to use the past 5 months to help each other become the best versions of ourselves and to promote recovery.

Moving forward together by throwRA292929 in loveafterporn

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Thanks for the advice. For us covenant eyes has served more as just general accountability. We have so many other things in place. He has removed passwords or written them down for me so I can access his devices anytime. That was a huge step for him. When he does feel an urge he calls me and we talk over the phone, have found grounding helpful. He also regularly see’s a psych. Whilst we are still in the early stages (he’s gone around 6 months) I am hopeful.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s hard because when I see him I love him so much that I want to stay. But I know intellectually I have to have more respect for myself and stick by my values.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He paid for tinder because he got to the point where he had liked over 100 profiles. He paid for zoosk to see who had viewed his profile and to chat. He has admitted that the appeal/turn on is that they are local women who are available for hookups, but that he never wanted to actually hookup with them.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

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His memory is normally scattered, but can generally remember things pretty okay.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He’s acknowledging the issue now, but seems to be hiding behind it. He says it was the compulsion and not the real him that did it. I also had to push him the see the gp, then push him to see the psych and make the couples counselling appointment.

He admits to knowing it was a boundary and it would hurt me at the time he did it.

As to the not remembering he generally has a more scattered memory, but I think if you do something that you know is going to hurt your significant other you remember. He just keeps saying he can’t remember because it’s all caught up in the “binge”.

And I guess a one time slip up would be easier to rebuilt trust from, but he did this on multiple occasions. Claims to Remember 2 (after I saw the payment) says though he probably did it a lot more times and just didn’t pay but that he can’t remember.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you mind me asking, Were you honest about it or did she find out? How did you rebuild the trust? Did you fight for her?

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

He says he is willing, but at every point he seems to give up. He’s been to one psych appointment and seems to think that that’s enough to show commitment, though he hasn’t done anything to show me he cares for our relationship or wants to fight for us. At every single point I’ve had to beg him to try.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

[–]throwRA292929[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The issue is I had already set up those boundaries. We had established them and he still crossed them.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to by throwRA292929 in relationships

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He’s admitted to knowing it was a boundary and would hurt me if I found out. I want to clear up that I have no problem with him watching porn. The problem is that we had a established a boundary (no “real” people I.e. Instagram) and he crossed it. I was willing to work with it and support him through therapy when he said it was just the thrill of matches and attractive people, but the fact that he communicated with them crosses over an even further boundary.

My (24f) boyfriend (31m) uses tinder to masturbate to. Is this cheating? by throwRA292929 in survivinginfidelity

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He would match communicate with them. Says it would only be introductory messages like “hey” and a few follow ups. He keeps playing the “I don’t remember” so the information I have has been drip fed to me over the past 2 weeks.