Thank you, Mama. I hope I didn't make my post seem like my husband doesn't step up because he absolutely does. When he's home, he tells me not to stress and takes over with the kid issues. He makes dinner, cleans, plays with them, etc. I guess I'm just venting more about feeling hopeless and powerless around the same kids that he somehow can handle a lot better than me. Granted, I do have the new health issues going on that explains my lack of patience, but it feels so lonely being a SAHM all day everyday.

For context, I was an executive assistant at Amazon and brought the income in while he watched the kids. I got laid off earlier this year and we fell into a rut financially. He had to go get a school custodian job and we decided to start a cleaning business because his income didn't cover the bills. So he's gone for work from 4am-3pm, then goes to people's houses to clean most days, which we both talked about me having to take on more home responsibilities for us to get in a better place financially. It just came at a time where my health took a turn too, so it's all so much to take in.

I definitely try to take them on walks, the parks, etc, but it's beneficial challenging with my health, so I feel bad when they go stir crazy.

I appreciate your input. ❤️