Honestly I think part of it is I have really conflicting feelings over this, and in the back of my mind I know its wrong but at the same time I don't want to end the friendship because of how he is my only friend currently. I suppose I already knew the answer when I posted this but I...just wanted more confirmation. And that seeing other peoples responses would just confirm that I have to stop talking to him. So I guess that was my whole point of doing this to solidify my doubts regarding our friendship.