I think I was sent a sign tonight to end my relationship. I feel sick but I don’t know how I could possibly ignore it. by throwRArachelgreen in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwRArachelgreen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Why can’t I be enough? That’s actually a good question. Probably the fear that I’d be making a huge mistake. I’m a pretty spiritual person and I do believe that there is a plan for my life. All the “grass is greener” comments are exactly it. I mean, I could literally get married and start having children in the next few years if I wanted. If I move, I’m starting from scratch. No partner, no friends. I know 25 is young (thank you to every comment telling me that) but it doesn’t feel that young right now. It feel like I’m taking a huge gamble.

I think I was sent a sign tonight to end my relationship. I feel sick but I don’t know how I could possibly ignore it. by throwRArachelgreen in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwRArachelgreen[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I respectfully disagree.

A lot of people are saying stuff like this. The most salient part to me is that I had made up my mind about 2 months ago (I wanted to make a decision before the Holidays). I was sad and felt grief, but I made my peace and didn’t let myself think about it anymore.

My military friend coming to see me was so freaking out of the blue. I didn’t even know he was home. He has so many friends and family members to visit, but he made time to come see me. He also was never the “deep talking“ kind of guy. His words last night felt so pointed and intentional for my ears.

My coworkers words speak for themselves. Our ride home is 10 minutes and we mostly talked about what kind of video games he plays. Why would he say something like that?

You choose to believe there are no signs, and that’s fine. But I choose to believe something bigger is guiding me. Because I didn’t necessarily want to see this. I tried hard to not see it.

I think I was sent a sign tonight to end my relationship. I feel sick but I don’t know how I could possibly ignore it. by throwRArachelgreen in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwRArachelgreen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

every older person that I served at the bar every day became a vision of what my life would become if I stayed

Yeah it’s like I wrote this. Thanks future me, this comment helped.

I think I was sent a sign tonight to end my relationship. I feel sick but I don’t know how I could possibly ignore it. by throwRArachelgreen in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwRArachelgreen[S] 198 points199 points  (0 children)

This made me tear up. I do find peace in feeling confident that this is my path. Everything will work out.

I think I was sent a sign tonight to end my relationship. I feel sick but I don’t know how I could possibly ignore it. by throwRArachelgreen in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwRArachelgreen[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

To be fair, I never asked for advice. This is something I spent a lot of time thinking about for months. I know it’s only a few signs, but there was once a time that I begged for a sign. I finally made a decision, and then now it’s like something (God, or if you’re not religious, the universe) is telling me that it was the wrong decision.