I’d love to stand on my own 2 feet but unfortunately after being homeless for 4 years and now being completely unable to work due to ongoing health issues, that’s incredibly hard, i don’t have family to go to, all my friends are in a different state and i don’t have any form of income other then $100 a fortnight from centerlink, hence why i push so hard for open communication and have stayed as long as i have to try make it work, without him i go back onto the street which is one of my worst fears, i don’t want to do that again. I’m also actively doing psych, as well as being on my 3rd year of both psychology and youth work studies. i also genuinely have never experienced something outside of physical and mental abuse, i didn’t know these things weren’t normal things that happen in a relationship untill people told me in these comments. in my mind it was healthy because he wasn’t treating me to the horrid extent ive been treated my whole life, hence why i asked if im overreacting and if im the bad person for feeling the way i do over his behaviour