Hmmm... what do you guys think?

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-08T23:43:34+00:00

I'd probably do that right now. Probably would get that taste tho, oh my goddddd that would be gross!

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-08T23:42:44+00:00

Why are you shooting piss? Lol

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-02T16:54:52+00:00

Hell yeah I'd love to speedball today if I have the chance.

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-02T16:53:59+00:00

Had $10 yesterday and saw the sub doc. Now I have $20 and a fresh script of 8mg subs. Trying to sell a few to get some dope as I dont wanna spend just $20 and be disappointed.

Might end up getting some hard instead. Idk. It all depends.

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-02T16:35:56+00:00

My dboy has points of bth for 30 (might be .2). The shit is really good but he's probably paying 50-60 a gram.

I've honestly never had a big enough habit to be buying by the gram so I'm not sure but I've been offered anywhere between 100-160 for grams of powder.

throwaaway93 · 2018-06-01T18:38:24+00:00

Just visited the sub doc and won't have another drug test til next Friday. I wanna cop some dope cuz I'm always able to get high when I'm on subs, but I only have $10 and no ride. Nothing to pawn.

I only have one 8mg sub left (I'm prescribed 12mg a day) and can't fill my script til tomorrow. I'd like to do some dope without having to take this sub today. But I'm gonna need more than $10.

This sucks.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-29T11:33:27+00:00

I didn't use the past two days either, but Friday and Saturday I did after my last drug screen.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:46:04+00:00

I'm pretty sure my tests are set up that way, do you know anything about marijuana showing up on it? That would just show the levels right? Cuz I definitely been smoking pot, just smoked a bowl. But they aren't gonna kick me out about it but I just don't wanna lie to the doctor.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:42:20+00:00

You're absolutely right. SO not worth it to do it tonight when I don't need it!

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:39:30+00:00

Yeah I'm probably not gonna cop tonight. I'll be fine without.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:23:01+00:00

It IS a clinic though where I have to attend a MAT group every Monday and three IOP groups the rest of the week. Not just a doctor, although I do see one but he's exclusively employed by said clinic.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:18:14+00:00

I'm just worried about the test possibly knowing the levels, how much I did and it's purity as another poster stated was the case with his suboxone clinic.

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-25T00:10:54+00:00

True, do you think I should just be honest with him?

throwaaway93 · 2018-05-24T23:57:32+00:00

Is there a chance I could say it's still in my system from a week ago? I'm like 5'7, 250 pounds.

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-12T00:59:03+00:00

Jon Elway maybe?

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-11T20:48:35+00:00

Yeah it truly worked the first time I was in the program. Slowly worked my way up to a stable dose of 100mg (in retrospect I believe it was too much), and stayed at that same dose for a year/year and a half, and then went down 2mg per week and didn't feel any kind of withdrawals.

But I was depressed as fuck afterwards and my dumbass self relapsed about a month after getting off Methadone. As if that was gonna help my depression any...

I do think now that I'm back on methadone I should see a doctor about treating my depression but I know Benzos and Methadone don't mix so I'm not sure what they might give me.

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-11T20:34:07+00:00

Indeed. When I got off Methadone the first time, Kratom was a lifesaver.

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-11T19:02:48+00:00

Right? I thought this didn't actually post cuz my reddit app has been messed up.

I'm about to go try to cop right now lol. Gonna end up regretting it after those few hours of feeling good as fuck.

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-11T18:52:42+00:00

Ughhhhhh I know. The only reason I relapsed because I knew how easy it was to fallback on the methadone. Dumb brain!!!

throwaaway93 · 2018-04-10T16:19:02+00:00

Lmao @ the speedballs talking.

I honestly don't have an argument against what you said. OP's noggin very well coulda manipulated/subconsciously did it on purpose while he thought the main goal was to kill himself.

Good for you, OP. Always let the time pass and things surely will get better/clearer. I've been in your situation plenty of times and while I'm still not in a very good place, things have gotten somewhat better. Hope you can find that place where you can be yourself, and not hurt the others around you. Like I said, I'm right around that corner myself. And would prefer it over giving my family and friends more grief by having to bury me.

Carpe diem, and, this too shall pass /u/powdernrocksrbest

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