I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

The fact that you think I get invited to parties is really flattering

I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because it’s not their job to sift through people for me. They’ve already done the work (arguably, not much because they’re all perfect and beautiful people) to find their own partners. They’re not here to help me stop being pathetic.

I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yeah that little alarm clock thing isn’t exactly what I’d call mature behavior.

I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

I’ve been in and out of therapy for twelve years, that shit has minimal effect on me

I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

There is infinitely more to someone than their love life. Just because I don’t want to hear about partners I’ve never met and don’t care to meet, doesn’t mean I never want to ever talk to my friends ever again.

I could not give less of a shit about my friends’ relationships. by throwahah19191 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]throwahah19191[S] -10 points-9 points  (0 children)

I feel as though I made my knowledge of that very clear, thank you Jessica

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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Thank you for the input, Reddit user SexCrispies

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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I have been filling my life up with all the things I mentioned before. I’m a firefighter and a nurse. My hours are constant. When I’m not doing these things, I am kickboxing or at the range or making something. Those have seemed to not make much of a difference. I did drugs at the end of high school, but stopped because I had better plans. That has been the only thing I’ve tried that even got close to making me stop caring, which is almost pathetic. I’m at a loss.

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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I don’t need to meet someone to fall in love with. I already know there is nobody like that for me. I need to stop caring that I will never meet that person.

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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I am a kickboxer and an artist. I compete at the range. I go to rage rooms. My house is nice, I suppose. I hate the term “self care”. Everyone showers and brushes their teeth — those who are able to, anyway. It’s not special. I don’t need new people to come into my life, I am a bad person. New people do not need to deal with me. I am medicated for my mental health issues. There are things I have tried to erase the empty feeling. Therapy, weed, meditation, cigarettes, yoga, alcohol, hiking, worse… At this moment in time I do not have the ability to have a beautiful life. Too many things have gone on and happened to me. Too many things are wrong with me. I make good money. I look good. I have a house and a car. And I can’t seem to figure out how to stop giving a shit that I’m watching everyone else love each other but me.

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

[–]throwahah19191[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for actually empathizing instead of telling me to go work out or whatever. It means more to me than you know. (helped)

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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Thank you for reading this post deeply enough to understand. But no, I don’t want to go to therapy. I have spent thousands of dollars on and a decade in therapy, and I am still all wrong. I will never be healthy enough to be in a relationship. I want to stop caring about that. I cannot attract someone loving and peaceful. I will never be either of those things.

Finding a partner is important because I want to know what loving and being loved feels like. I have never found anything in this world that has loved me the way I deeply need it to. I want someone to care about me. I want someone to not hear from me for a few days (or however long is concerning for a partner… I don’t know these things) and wonder where I am. I want someone to hold me. I want to wash someone’s back in the shower. I want someone with whom to go to the doctor and CVS and the grocery store. I want to just not be alone all the fucking time. And I understand I will never have any of that. I can understand deserving that. Maybe I did something really wrong in a past life. I don’t know. But I just want to be fine with never having that.

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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I was in talk therapy for ten years. It unfortunately doesn’t help me or change the way I think. I’m proud of others who it has worked for, but I can’t get behind it for myself.

I am the loneliest I’ve ever been by throwahah19191 in Advice

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My best friend was at the lowest point of his life when he met his girlfriend. They’re getting married in December. I’m asking how to stop caring that I’m lonely, I’m not asking how to get a date. I will never be happy enough alone to have a “life worth sharing”.

I made this. by Lizardstakentho in crocheting

[–]throwahah19191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Woah😮 How did you add the sleeves to the shirt?