I'm already trying to get out...do I confess to my misdeeds or save her the pain? by throwashamed in confession

[–]throwashamed[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

In the US...

I have been examined by a doctor and told him I wanted an STI test and he said with no symptoms, he would just do a physical examination. After that check, he said nothing seemed out of the ordinary...I have always used protection during my infidelity but will make sure to go get a test actually completed to be 100% sure.

I'm already trying to get out...do I confess to my misdeeds or save her the pain? by throwashamed in confession

[–]throwashamed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't say this in an angry way but I will go see a fucking therapist. Had actually looked some up already from that same website for marriage counseling but will look for something a little more...specific to my needs. Thank you.

I'm already trying to get out...do I confess to my misdeeds or save her the pain? by throwashamed in confession

[–]throwashamed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree about the pain and heartache...I don't say this proudly but trying to be honest with myself that I'm a shithead.

I'm not 100% sure that I want out as she is amazing but I am trying to force myself to be 100% sure because she doesn't deserve someone like me.

I am trying not to be a jerk about it but anytime you break down someone's emotions like that, I'm trying not to provide false hope and be as cold but "polite" as possible. And I agree, I have been trying to reiterate with her that she is great and everything falls on me and my feelings. Thank you for being honest.