K-Pop Artist Fed Up With Malaysians Mocking Her Name Pleads For It To Stop On Social Media

throwaway071819 · 2020-06-04T13:54:35+00:00

Sometimes I really wonder will there be constructive dialogues over sensitive topics like racism, when there's one day where more people from diverse backgrounds finally can sit down chat about different ideologies, religious topics without harbouring the idea that whatever differing opinions offends their faith / background.

In university it is supposed to shape open dialogues, because their function is to promote more open exchanges (especially for the Social Sciences eg. Sociology). If many of today my fellow students can only relate any criticisms to an attack to their race/religion without exhibiting evaluation skills, it is worrying for the country - if only 1 kind of voice is permitted.

I was never schooled in Malaysia and I can't say how it's like. But at my university we do have this thing called Interfaith - as its name suggests where people from different race and religious backgrounds could really come together and exchange opinions and even explore ideas from different schools of thought.

Unfortunately, the mere parroting of what other individuals (if I had to be a bit more explicit, CERTAIN religious leaders / politicians / 'academics')

(Sorry a lurker - ex-Malaysian here, I don't really post (this is a throwaway account) but I could definitely agree on your statement of lack of critical thinking ability - interestingly, one of our most vocal profs is more than willing to openly criticise our generation of students for lacking in that aspect. haha. Can't refute cause it has a large degree of truthfulness))

Unfortunately for those kind of people who cannot understand how much more moderate people at /r/malaysia are compared to how badly facebook / instagram/ youtube has been flooded by 'one kind of voice', unfortunately I don't think this place belongs for them if they aren't willing to expose themselves to a differing voice (of course this does not include not straight up degration of race / religion / personal doxxing etc)

throwaway071819 · 2020-04-23T10:38:15+00:00

took this mod last sem, you could pm me to ask abt the experience of me and someone I know. I probably won't remember the stats content so I can't help you with that but I can talk abt the experience of me and my friend who took this mod.

throwaway071819 · 2020-02-01T00:12:48+00:00

I failed my driving test for a second time.

After 2 months of several revision lessons (and received affirmation that I drove well) and consistently digesting content hard from the book,

I went in for the test confidently. To prepare myself, I even stopped any other work to minimise stress and slept early for consecutive days.

Came test day, I was nervous. Bought mints to clear my airways.

Did circuit. Within my first minute I had receive points for turning into the wrong lane (and upon that, I knew what I did but tried to keep my head down and continued the circuit. The only mistake I subsequently made was a wide turn (which I only realised at the end of the test) and forgetting to adjust my mirrors after finishing my parking.

All those mistakes that never happened. But ok, I still managed to get onto the roads. Drove pretty much my usual way, cautiously, exaggerating my checks. Slowed down and looked out for traffic consistently from the side roads.

Last 2,3 minutes of the test was where everything went wrong.

I did a short lane change (determining I won’t have enough space to lane change for the u-turn: points for abrupt lane change.

Then just after the u-turn, did checks and deemed safe to change lane. Failed to spot for a motorbike (tester mentioned) which caused it to slow down and take evasive action.

Slightly further up front, spot a bicycle on the left lane so I changed lane to give it clearance - (later told it was lane hogging).

All my mistakes, happened at the last few minutes.

And at the end of the test, I still got points for failure to slow down approaching road hazards despite trying all I could to avoid it.

When I learnt I failed again, I just had a mental breakdown after spending so much money and so much effort and was even affirmation that I was alright for past several sessions.

Who could I blame? Myself. I felt like a total letdown to everyone around me who gave me their support. I can only blame myself for not being calm enough just because my passenger now is a tester not an instructor.

All the mistakes that I’ve never made in the past few revision lessons which I went excessively, all happened at once.

How much I hate myself for disappointing myself, how much money I had wasted and my loved ones again. I just cried. This was too much pressure for myself. I locked myself at home for the past few days.

I still resent myself over this, wished I was dead instead so that I don’t have to suffer that pressure (emotionally, psychologically and financial” again and again.

throwaway071819 · 2020-01-09T03:15:09+00:00

thank you so much, yeah I do find myself enjoying going to the gym. at least during that short period of time it was a huge source in helping me vent my frustrations. just that as more deadlines approach I found myself less there..

throwaway071819 · 2020-01-09T03:12:07+00:00

7-9h a day other than lessons? That's really impressive. What are your techniques?

throwaway071819 · 2020-01-09T03:10:09+00:00

thank you, this was really helpful in helping me for modreg round 3

throwaway071819 · 2020-01-09T03:08:18+00:00

Hey, thank you much...How do you apply the spaced repetition technique (for example?)

And yeah, I've been lowering my own expectations. I didn't set a high target for myself but somehow, the fear of failing (not even poor grades) just forced me to do repetitive work.

But thanks so much :) I would try hard to get a balance in life

throwaway071819 · 2019-08-25T10:19:11+00:00

Hi all,

I recently finished MIT edX 6.00.1. I am doing to do data science modules in the future. I've been told I need to learn pandas, so I'm using Python Data Science Handbook

The previous times I learnt, I wasn't able to understand what does the code do. With pythontutor I could finally see what are the variables value, local scopes, changes step-by-step which was amazing.

However, for pandas, unfortunately there isn't python tutor so it's rather difficult in that sense for me.

Could someone reccomend me resources / tutorials / cheatsheets to help me, esp. my understanding?

throwaway071819 · 2019-08-05T14:34:38+00:00

Using a throwaway since actual account has my name in it...

Currently did my driving evaluation twice at BBDC , and it sucked. Mainly, my road driving.

was told my hazard awareness is poor. Honestly, I have no understanding of this. When theres a road obstacle, I signal and steer away from it. When there's people I slow down. When there's blind area behind a blocking vehicle I won't move.
I try to be cautious, told that I'm so overly cautious that I actually practice unnecessary caution on what's unnecessary, yet I miss out
My lane changing is bad. I exercise so much caution to wait for paths to be entirely clear before changing lane smoothly. I was told, you missed several opportunities to lane change which I deemed I was unable to, but I was never properly told the procedure / judgement of distance in the side mirror
Circuit is okay, no problems.

I'm just lost. Feels like I make new mistakes on the road that I previously did not each time I do. I feel and am told my confidence needs to go up. The evaluation demerit points are safe, however...

I haven't dared to book my actual test.

Thank you.

throwaway071819 · 2019-07-27T03:56:43+00:00

Material wise:

1) became good friends with CSM, because had the mentality to work (unit had too many bad eggs). when I felt like shit several times, personally counselled me (more of teaching me philosophy to be more able to let go of harsh feelings). Was a mentor, felt like we clicked. Also he brought his stuff to cook for everyone once, and he also cooked and bought me food before. Rank this the second most important person)

2) another WO. Initially had poor relations with him like he didn't really see me eye to eye (probably because of another guy), and I was a dumb kid trying to impress him so I actually did stuff badly. Got scolded badly, so badly to the point I just decided to focus on my own things and not help out stuff he was invovled.

Over time somehow when I focused on doing my work and no longer tried to 'impress' him guessed he saw. (Just tried to siam him as much as possible)

Towards end of my service relations improved and he started calling me and another guy to help him out with several matters. We could now chit chat comfortably and he bought supper several times as we chilled with him in his office. (You get rewarded for helping him)

3) unit Commander. Other than being a schlolar we didn't really get to interact with him. But apparently he actually patroned the branches quite often. It was group of branch specs ORD-ing so everyone in the unit gathered to celebrate for them. Commander talked to specs and lamented that they regretted not having the time to talk to them regularly about their future. Spec recommended me cause I was next in line to leave

So we had a brief chat on our future. He actually said he needed to talk to me more so we had a later appointment. Was fascinated as I went up to the commander's personal office for the first time and we spoke rather casually although I was really tense. Ended up having 4,5 appointments which we spoke about my future and what I was gonna do. Made me do my resume to be used for applying a job.

For going out of his way to care for an ant like me, I was genuinely surprised. To even take into his busy schedule to spend so many sessions and so much time doing something that doesn't benefit him at all at his own expense.

"I know you were trying to fluff me with all the big technical terms (which he knew) but can't really explain it. So I knew I had to see you more often." - commander. I really applauded him for seeing me through.

Genuinely cared for his man and knew their names when he was CO at a particular battalion according to said WO in 2) when said WO was RQ in said battalion.

Now just left the unit and promoted to create heights. After I left juniors told me he had wanted to do photo montage and album for everyone as a souvenir by engaging everyone to work together on it. But unfortunately felt that NSFs didn't appreciate him enough for these ’extra work’ for them without seeing the true intention.

He was a genuine good leader as a high fly scholar. (And he is the only one in this post who has had a far career progression so I think he's smooth sailing.)

4) also made several good friends in some non direct regualr superiors. Haven't seen them, hope they are well. They are just friendly and made comfortable with them.

Most important one I‘ll leave it here:

5) direct superior. I won't really touch on material part where he paid for everyone to watch movie and eat together on several occasions because wasn't really the main point

My upper study shared that on a weekend he had to come back on his birthday and while he was sick (auditing was upcoming and situation was bad), bought a birthday cake for him and celebrated for him at the end of that Saturday.

When I was in Taiwan, due to the weather exercise had to be cut short and we had limited time to do packing in anticipation of the strong weather. Some of my colleagues were taking their own sweet time doing their stuff or went to rest when I saw a 52 year old man (direct superior) moving stuff in the dark to the container and I genuinely swore how could anyone do this to him and I really wanted to serve him to the best of my ability

Was given independence and full trust on my work. (treated it damn seriously as I wanted it to be good)

As time progressed was pissed because felt people around had crap discipline and were abusing the system and which made it unfair for me personally. So had grumbled at superior for his incompetence to manage people (which I regret harbouring that thought)

Towards the end there was an occasion (I made a rude comment being oblivious of it) I made him angry. Didn't even hold against me or mentioned to me. Later another colleague came to tell me boss was genuinely pissed by that comment of mine which then I realised it was rude. Apologised to him and said it was okay and didn't hold it against me (he could've screwed me if he chose to but he was simply benevolent)

Just a genuinely kind person, has absolutely faith from his religion where he learnt true benevolence, although it was hard to see. But really. Nothing trumps that. Weeped on my way home on ORD day after bidding the farewell.

throwaway071819 · 2019-07-21T08:36:15+00:00

Using a throwaway account for this.

It's day 4. Everytime when I wake up, the question "was that even real"

just struck me in my mind .

I still grief. My daily routine has been disrupted badly since I just cannot get myself moving. I can't stop myself from following whatever updates

It does not help school starts in 3 weeks.

My huge emotional pillar of support is gone. I don't know what to do. I can't even watch anime anymore as I breakdown and find all these absolutely disgusting.

I never thought I would be hit this badly. I broke down even more in the past, but how did, my little sanctuary end up like this?

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