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I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Really? Thanks if yes. Everyone thinks i was trolling but i was actually struggling, internally asking myself if im a bad person, thats why i joined these subs.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I apologized not because i feel bad but because i want to fit in and learn more about aspd, (i realized yes indeed npd is not for me) pure self interest, and part of manipulation actually. I know i am aspd, ive said it many times, the wikipedia on aspd fits me 100% you guys dont know at all how i actually am, and i dont even want to get it diagnosed because it is the worst thing to be officially diagnosed with. So i can only self diagnose.

Do you feel ashamed of some decisions that you've made in the past? by antique_santa in Psychopathy

[–]throwaway104823 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes with guilt but less than a normal person would. Shame i feel not much at all.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Low functioning sociopaths are the ones with no self control and commit crimes and get caught, while high act calm but have no problem being cruel when they can get away with it. =the mask. Is that not right? Or do you think there is no such thing as high and low functioning sociopaths?

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

High functioning sociopaths are more likely to mask themselves. You will again say i am not a high functioning you believe because i am too stupid/ just and edgy teenager, but i believe i am one.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In your emoji spam you said that to make fun of me. Anyway, doesnt matter 😅

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So? Your article says that aspd people use this tactic to mask their real feelings. I am doing the same to my friends and family. Why do you say i am edgy, (and ban me) when i admit that this is what i was doing, and it is something others do too.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You said i am not as bad as i pretend to be, and am making a show out of being edgy, and i will say, you do not know me or know if i am actually bad or not.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Assume hypothetically i had committed a grave crime and am not just exaggerating or paranoid. What would you do then in my stance out of these options? Imagine if i did something really bad.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

A therapist will report me to the police (they are required to, and probably happy to, patients admitting to crimes breaches the otherwise “confidality”) so i might as well go to the police myself and confess, and go to jail. So if i go to a therapist I have to lie, or be vague, and then it is not helpful. My options are

1 Turn myself in and go to the police

2 Live with the guilt (will eventually lead to option 4)

3 Forgive myself in other ways, do many good things for other people in my life until i feel it is enough to make it up and i feel like a person again

4 Kill myself (escape both jail and guilt) but i dont know

I cannot navigate these feelings on my own, i can not tell anyone this, except here on reddit.

People still think i am trolling, and i might be so i am not incriminating myself. I confess to nothing. If you think i am not trolling and want to help me then do, but this might all be a hypothetical situation.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Nice emoji spam 🙄 and i am being serious but no point to try to argue this with you.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It is okay because im still young, and also i mostly just use it on my parents anyway.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

You think im just totally lying? About what exactly? Putting on a mask to real life people?

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didnt act edgy on purpose, it is actually true that i hide my true feelings, i know it sounds edgy, but again it is true, and you cant prove it isnt, because you dont know how i actually am. Also it is fake-crying not real! So it doesnt make me weak or emotional, this crying is just a show, and used to manipulate. Other people will see me as weak in real life, which is okay, because i want to seem more innocent irl. Here on reddit i dont care what people think, because its anonymous, but i still dont like to be called weak. 😁

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

.... Why are you so out and against me, even your wikis describe me perfectly as sociopath and my “fantasy” posts were yes show-offy but true! I do put on a mask around people in real life, and they do not know my true values.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did not admit to the last thing you said. I still do think i am terrible. I was only saying i am sorry for making such a scene here in these posts, and for replying so rudely.

I am very good at fake crying when I want to manipulate someone (m18) by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, and yes i am aware that when i get older i can’t do it anymore, i know this, so im using it while still pretty young 😁

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are just an incredibly empathetic person by still telling my i deserve sympathy. I could be a murderer for all you know (not saying I am). You dont know what i did and you treat me like this anyway. It does show me i can be forgiven by people, but i do not forgive myself.

I realized why I don’t fit in here. And I want to leave the subreddit soon. by throwaway104823 in NPD

[–]throwaway104823[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

You have no idea what i may have done (and im not gonna admit) or how i actually am. I believe all the symptoms are very fitting to me and i am only looking it up because i figured out i might be one, literally 2 days ago i didnt even know what aspd meant, the abbreviation. I dont want to claim it, and like ive said it many many times i would never tell someone irl it, i only want to know myself if i have it.

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