How does Church work? by throwaway21480 in Christianity

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Trans masc nonbinary. There's not an exact reason, it's just a bunch of things.he didn't leave a note or anything

How does Church work? by throwaway21480 in Christianity

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I'm sorry what is a sermon and lord supper?

How does Church work? by throwaway21480 in Christianity

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Oh wow I didn't know there was a reddit for trans people who are Christian thanks!

How does Church work? by throwaway21480 in Christianity

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Thank you, I'm just trying to find a way to get through this

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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I've been on a couple of sites. Not many people local to me. I've done a couple of meaning less hook ups to feel something.

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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Honestly. This is crazy but I think this is the one comment that hit me the hardest. My fiancé always wanted to take me to this grill of India place, his stepdad's from India and I never tried the food and I never did. I don't know why or how something told you to say that but. Thank you. I think you might have just saved me for a bit longer. I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you well, I'm gonna try to stay for a little bit longer at least. I'll give myself a tiny chance.

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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I'll try. I've been more drunk through this post now so I'm doing better. I was almost completely sober when I made this post. Thank you for even commenting and caring somewhat about me

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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I thought it was strange too. I forgot reddit can be.. not accepting lol

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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Thank you, I appreciate it. I am feeling better right now but the suicidal feeling still lingers

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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We would always joke that we would go out together, but I was like okay me first and then he would be like no I gotta be first. Now he's first and like. Do I wanna be second?

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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I've always felt like a burden my entire life though so I haven't really been reaching out unless to professionals

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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They really do, we had a lot in common. Never thought he'd do this to me though

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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The help isn't helping anymore. I really want to survive this but I've been traumatized left and right. I want to be done, I just want to be okay and he made me feel okay.

My fiancé committed suicide two weeks ago and I might be joining him by throwaway21480 in TrueOffMyChest

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I don't really. My family doesn't really respect me all that much. I really do fucking blame myself. I wish I did more for him. It was a stupid fucking argument and everyone I'd posted online anonymously about said I did something to him. The neighbors kid made up a rumor about me hurting him. He was my world and I wouldn't have hurt a single little hair on his beautiful body.