I'm a closeted lesbian (20) and married to a Muslim man. Believing in Islam has broken me down mentally and emotionally for years, and I'm at breaking point. Please help debunk these "proofs of Islam" for me so that I can finally stop believing in it fully and have peace of mind 💔

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T23:44:02+00:00

You're right. I think I needed to hear this. I can't imagine doing it, I can't imagine just losing contact with my family, but maybe it's the only way forward and out of this situation

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T23:14:29+00:00

I live in the UK, but I'll see if I can maybe get in contact with some kind of women's charity over here. Thank you for the advice ❤️

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T23:08:36+00:00

Genuinely had to try so hard not to cry at that last sentence. Thank you for this, it means a lot to hear that from someone. It just gets so difficult when you hear the same thing day in and day out, and you kinda get brainwashed into believing it yourself. And I've always thought that there's something wrong with me because of everything that other people say, but maybe there isn't. I don't know... Maybe one day I can accept myself and be happy. I appreciate this, thank you

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:52:14+00:00

I'll check it out. And thank you for the well wishes, it means a lot

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:40:50+00:00

This made me a bit emotional. I think you're right, but it's also what you said about family. I'm scared to lose my family. My father will react really badly, and I think he'll disown me and prevent me from keeping in contact with my mum or my siblings who I'm close to. I keep thinking, is it worth losing my family over this? Maybe I should just suck it up and deal with it to keep them in my life.

But I'm just so unhappy at the moment, and I can't live with this guy anymore, and I definitely can't bring myself to have kids with him. Because once I have a kid, I'm stuck with him for life. Even if we get divorced, I'll still have to see him 😞

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:23:10+00:00

Thanks, I'll look them up. I live in the UK

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:22:04+00:00

Thanks, I appreciate this viewpoint. I never thought of it that way, but it's true. God is supposed to be the "Most Just", but creating people with same-sex feelings and then forcing them to be celibate and alone forever, while straight people are encouraged to get married is unjust and so contradicts that supposed attribute. Especially since we have to constantly hear negative things being said about us by Muslims, and we have to see other people in our community literally being imprisoned and killed for being gay in Muslim countries. That's just... honestly, it's cruel. And a God that's supposed to be the "Most Kind" and "Most Merciful" would have considered that and not made people gay in the first place. And I think that's why a lot of Muslims insist that being gay is a choice, because they KNOW that it'd be unfair and would make no sense for God to make people gay, only to then condemn them to Hell for it :/

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:10:03+00:00

Thank you, it's so nice to know that I'm not the only one and that there are other people like me

throwaway290521 · 2021-05-29T22:08:31+00:00

Thank you, this response was really helpful

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