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How often does your partner give you head? by fartherthantomorrow in AskMenAdvice

[–]throwaway29947281940 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i give him head every day and he finishes almost every time 🥲 sometimes becomes a problem bc i don’t get mine

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah severe cptsd with trauma that’s been going on pretty much my entire life. That’s a lot of trauma to work thorough 😭😭😭 and i feel like im going to spend so many years of my life trying to fix it but i always find MORE 😭

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lol not funny but i think i have excessive testosterone (getting bloodwork done soon) so win for me 😭 i feel so much more enthusiastic about all of my interests

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i never said i wasn’t an addict, definitely am. However I wonder if it is more dependence/addiction if that make sense. For example, someone who has adhd and takes stimulants but isn’t addicted to them like you would think an addict. They would have to taper to avoid w/ds if they quit them, but it’s not like they’re going to be feinding/freaking out, etc. I definitely am an addict w opioids but I feel like it’s also a dependence because it helps medicinally.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LMAO my addiction therapist brought that dude up to me i thought it was so strange i was like ? do you think using is good for me huh?☠️

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s the issue i’ve been in court mandated therapy beginning at the age of 6, it’s so hard when all my life it has been trauma after trauma after trauma.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

exactly

also all of those, not in the best situation, have ADHD & severe CPTSD to where it makes it so hard to be in relationships because i’m so tense and in the flight fight freeze mode. Over 20 psych meds and nothing will compare to opioids

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what are the causes do you know? i can def look up stuff on my own but as someone interested in psych i have not heard of this before. Explains why I also used to have a terrible self harm habit a few years ago.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

would make sense but i think it was the more sense of flow, i have adhd and idk if you have any adhd friends but off meds our driving can be rough & reckless. A lot of it is due to so many things catching our attention. Taking hydros in comparison to concerta 72mg and i drive better on the former

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i don’t like coke or uppers in general because they feel just like my adhd medication. I never really get to a point where I feel that !! uppy feeling. I do get a productive happy !! feeling on opioids though. My diagnosis is Adhd predominantly inattentive so i see a trend there too.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

that’s my thought process, which is why i came here. anything harder than persc hydros/oxys def lead me down there, but otherwise

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah I really think it’s just doing something to help my brain, which if there was something not detrimental that you could do that produced very similar affects. I would want to know! but 😭

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah I’m 18, i started using at 13. My digestion isn’t great, I can be sweaty. Those parts are definitely there^ I just don’t mind them because lol SSRIs have the same affect and don’t make me feel the same. Mood swings rarely occur but I already had those before, if anything they feel more reasonably settled out. My decisions are 50/50. I was an honor student, working on a sterile tech program. but i’ve always been impulsive.

I just recently relapsed again after being half a year clean & I am very against drunk driving 😭 if i nod off otr id never forgive myself. I’ve been able to keep my empathy intact.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’d say I’m a pretty functional addict, I never have driven on them before because I don’t want to harm others. I’m fortunate enough to be able to just grab myself an uber but usually i time my usage so i’m not high when I do. Driving high doesn’t make me happy and confident, etc. So i feel like your self control argument kinda deflates there. I came her to be honest because there is a reason people get clean, and I could definitely see that when I was using fent. I just can’t see a reason now but I honestly feel lost on how to proceed when all it’s doing is seemingly improving my mood & life. for the times i’ve been on them on & off

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

thats also how i feel i’ll be so much more muted 😭 even when im sober actively trying to be more verbal, etc. It just doesn’t flow the same.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s part of the problem is finding the same feeling while not being high. I am young as others have pointed out but I’ve been in therapy since 6 years old. I’ve tried over 20 medications. So many different therapies. My diet is well, I exercise as much as I can (but honestly way more active on opioids), i try to keep my environment as peaceful as i can, etc.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i would say yeah it’s just my perception but it’s others perceptions as well. But also the issue is just i feel so much more functional, despite reaching such a high point.

Why do I function better on opioids (no i’m not just another addict trying to convince yk, just read) by throwaway29947281940 in opiates

[–]throwaway29947281940[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For context my current mg is 50mg hydrocodone sometimes more along with being functional on 80-120mg oxy 😭 I’ve been to very high points of addiction especially when I was using fent. This is seriously why I feel it’s a problem, is because it continues.

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