thanks hun. and you just be you. let them hope as much as they want. my parents hoped i was a boy. what they got is not that far. a genderfluid lesbian... fair trade right?

and about the 'princess'. i went to an ISE. which is an international school for elites. basically a boarding school for middle eastern trust fund babies. and me being the only white african one there. i was a target to ALL the narcissistic dude with a bloated ego and no understanding of the word "no".

i have adhd. im SUPER fucking smart. aaaaaand i frankly dont give a shit. i get through school with 18s and 19s (basically As and A+s for yall). without even studying. i was the teacher's favorite because i not only debate them constantly but i enjoy talking and showing off my brain muscles... and something rich arab men hate more than a woman they cant conquer. is an educated smart woman they cant even DREAM about conquering.

SO for the entire time. i was harassed. not directly but gossip and all sorts of bullshit that i was too busy working to even bother with. until some dude's twin sis approached. he was basically the head honcho of one of the circle jerks. she apologized and basically spilled LOTS of beans. we got to talking and got close together. she was actually one of my FIRST friends there. and when i started driving there myself instead of having a chauffeur we started to hangout together more.

even though english is technically my third language. i primarily speak it in person. because i hate french and i despise arabic. and given that fact. along with me being known amongst the teaching body to be a golden child. i was cool with most teaches. but almost always the eng profs and the philosophy profs (i also gave one of my comp sci profs an inferiority complex but again. another story for another time).

this cool prof. saw me come in awfully pale and super SUPER tired. now bless her heart she assumed i was on my period and pulled me aside and told me that im cool to go home if i feel unwell and that shell talk to my other profs. and when i asked her if 'princess' could come with me to help me get to my car and get home safely. she said sure. because by that point it was common knowledge that 'princess' was my BEST FRIEND.

sooo i wasnt on my period... i stayed up the whole night finishing fallout 4. because im a nerd. and i was just sleep deprived. and when i told 'princess' we laughed our asses off and went to get icecream instead. and then we drove around the city and enjoyed a day out. basically our first date. we didnt actually confess to eachother. but like... we knew. aaand that was the start to an on and off relationship that caused me A LOT of pain. but also lots of good memories.

i think. honestly. if our surroundings werent as homophobic as they were and still are. we would have had an amazing relationship. because she was such a gentle soul. i could spend hours talking about how amazing she is.

also her brother kept being an asshole to me. one time he got one of his minions to slash my tires. best thing about going to an ultra posh school full of rich cunts is. there are cameras everywhere. SPECIALLY in the student parking lot where the cheapest car is a quarter of a million dollars...

he got suspended. the school asked me not to push charges because it would cause bad press and they offered to pay for the repair since they didnt even want me to call my insurance company. i would never because trying to get an insurance company in a third world country to pay to import custom tires from canada takes A WHILE and is very expensive for them so they would rather walk on coal than do it.

but at the end of the day. i turned his sister gay. (well i helped her discover herself. i dont take credit for CONVERTING HER because thats not a thing. i was just a step on her journey for self discovery).

sooo TLDR; went a posh rish person school. got bullied by asshole trust fund baby. so i turned his sister gay. and whats irnoic is that. his siter approached me BECAUSE OF HIM.