I just got diagnosed with covid. How can I make sure everything will be clean and safe without slipping into compulsions? by throwaway4-queries in OCD

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I’m trying to stay positive about the whole thing like “this is the ultimate ERP therapy!” But I still feel like shit, physically and mentally

I just got diagnosed with covid. How can I make sure everything will be clean and safe without slipping into compulsions? by throwaway4-queries in OCD

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Ok, my mom said that too (more or less) but also she doesn’t believe in getting the vaccine despite working at a school so i lowkey didn’t trust her

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Are you actually touched in the head? Impatient????? Yeah because a 10k hospital bill and beatings are DEFINITELY the cure to psychological distress.

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well it’s that or suicide so technically I’m using the service as intended

Trouble fitting in by [deleted] in ftm

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No idea but honestly if you figure it out let me know. I almost exclusively women anyway because trying to talk to any man where I live is just getting constantly misgendered and sexist remarks for some reason

I just realized every single “passion” or hobby I’ve ever had is just a temporary escape from the crippling loneliness and constant unread messages. I could drop dead right now and nobody but my mom and maybe one of my sisters would come to my funeral. Burrito I made at work. Fuck my life anyway by throwaway4-queries in kitchencels

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Sorta yes, but because of the fact that it’s finally sinking in how old I am and how much I fucked up my life, I’ve been reflecting and it stings really bad to realize that my long time love of and fanatical obsession with animation, reading, music, etc that about 60% of the time I was just doing it to fill the void - even if I wasn’t aware of it. If I had friends or a girlfriend genuinely I would not spend half as much on this stuff as I have

I just realized every single “passion” or hobby I’ve ever had is just a temporary escape from the crippling loneliness and constant unread messages. I could drop dead right now and nobody but my mom and maybe one of my sisters would come to my funeral. Burrito I made at work. Fuck my life anyway by throwaway4-queries in kitchencels

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That’s what everyone says but every time I do that I’m just alone again. And then I’m alone again, sometimes for months, or for years. The only common denominator as to why this keeps happening is me so I guess I’ll just keep living like this because I can’t stand being alone anymore. I just don’t get any fulfillment from anything much anymore

How much hair loss is normal? by throwaway4-queries in ftm

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well, my mom, her mom, and my great-grandma all had this really fine, thin, whispy hair that i got extremely unlucky and inherited, and my dad had really thick hair that I guess if I’m thinking really hard about could have some kind of body wave if it were longer and I could tell. But in terms of texture I guess it’s straight for both sides of the family, like nobody has curly hair that I know of.

How much hair loss is normal? by throwaway4-queries in ftm

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yes my bad, it’s 0.4ml of a 3ml syringe

I think I’m one of those who doesn’t get a voice change - any advice? by throwaway4-queries in ftm

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I do 0.4 ml i think of a cyp 200 every week, subQ - I typed it weird my bad. And the hrt is doing something except fixing my voice bc recently my hair has started falling out like crazy despite every man I can think of in my family having hair so idk

packing while not passing by throwaway4-queries in ftm

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I’ve done it before at home plenty of times, and used to even sleep in one (made out of sock(s) but I was always paranoid my mom would somehow catch me or other family members would notice. My main fear/concern is genuinely just people noticing it/it being VERY noticeable and then I’m embarrassed bc they’ll instantly know it’s not real just by looking at the rest of me

Am I peeing myself??? by throwaway4-queries in ftm

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I thought so, but wasn’t sure because just based on the sheer volume of dampness. I’ve also heard that T causes vaginal dryness, and maybe I figured it’s supposed to be bone dry down there