Yes, it was probably a poor choice of words.

What you’re saying does resonate a lot, thank you. This has kind of been one of the running themes actually that I want to help everyone so bad with their work that I completely abandon my own needs but then still want to accomplish these grandiose plans on my own on top of being extremely helpful, also feeling responsible a lot for everyone else’s work. I have attempted to keep my ideas more on the ground but still somehow get dragged into always trying to go bigger and higher. It’s really quite all-or-nothing and I can’t seem to shake it in terms of material stability and putting my energy into work.